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Title: My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on August 01, 2004, 01:58:33 AM
Hiya Everyone!!           January 31, 2004                                      
"My Story"


 I was born in California in 1960 north from San Francisco. This is my story below.

Doctors discovered my birth defect Pectus Excavatum (http://www.shrinershq.org/whatsnewarch/archives01/chest8-01.html) right after I was born. I don't remember the doctors or the hospitals I was taken too. I know my mother told me I was taken to Shriners Hospital and others before I could remember anything.  My mother and father moved from Northern, California in 1964 to Southern, California. My daddy took a higher paying job and their were better prospective hospitals in Southern, California in 1964.  I had to wear a  special T brace from age 2 to five, I also had to do special exercises rocking back and forth while holding my ankles with my hands while on my chest. I wasn't allowed to ride a bicycle at all until 1968 or 1969.  Wonderful doctors at Los Angeles Orthopaedic Hospital Foundation (http://www.orthohospital.org) treated me so nice and gentle. Well, 1965 came around, many x-rays, more than I care to remember, brrrrrrr, it was cold in there. My one wonderful, loving doctor, Dr. Bruer operated on me in 1965 at the Los Angeles Orthopaedic Hospital . My center Sternum Bone was Fused to my Back Bone when I was born. I missed a lot of school in  Kindergarten :D. I remember to this day 39 years ago today, nurses rolling me into a big room, I asked my doctor what the big light was for, he said "It will make you go to sleep sweetie". I don't remember the surgery to well, thank goodness! What I do remember is me laying in my hospital bed looking down at myself laying there with all this machines hooked up to me, and my mother and father crying. I now know what I was seeing. My mother told me much later in my life the hospital kept me unconscious for three or four days after my surgery. So, I must have left my body and watched them and myself. It's no wonder I believe in God (Daddy) from then on!  I spent a long arduous road healing in 1965. I don't remember how long I was in the hospital; I do know it was a long time though.  My pin came out of my chest in 1966 or 1967, I got an ambulance ride to the hospital, kewl, and I didn't feel any pain. I truly thought my mother poured ketchup on me :D . The pin had threads on it so it would work its way out all by itself. My mother still has my baby book with the pin and my wrist band in it to this day! Anyhow, I was put to sleep again so Dr. Bruer :D could remove my pin. This pin was inserted into my chest bones to help keep them steady from clasping back in again. I had to wear a special made brace from 1965 to 1968 around my chest area. After I seen my doctor again in 1968, he gave me the go ahead so I could have a bicycle now. I was elated, and so happy I could have a bicycle now!! I got to pick the any bicycle I wanted at the Schwinn dealer; it was a happy day for me!!! As I was growing up, I had pains in my chest bones. The doctors said it's because I was growing.  

In 1995 I contracted pneumonia and had x-rays done on my chest again. The doctor told me after I got better; he wanted to show me something I had no idea what it was either. After I got well, the doctor showed me my x-rays and explained I had wires in my center sternum bones. As I looked at them and showed him my birth defect he then knew why the wires were there for. I had no idea, not even my mother knew I had stainless steel wires holding my chest bones together still. I was shocked myself to know I had those wires within me still. My doctor explained to me they were probably put there to hold my chest together while I was healing. Plus he told me they are deeply imbedded with in my sternum bones that it's impossible to remove them. I am happy now I'm alive to this day I thank God for helping me through my life. I wrote this poem for my personal feelings and my birth defect below.


My Heart Poem

Be careful with my heart,
I gave it to you for safe keeping,
It's a very fragile and weak heart that gets hurt real easy,
Why is this too be,
My heart was a nice heart,
Ask my doctors who moved my heart and lungs around,
God only knows why my heart hurts all so bad,
Trusting, Believing, and safe satisfaction that someone will take care of it,
My heart believes in Love and Security,
Caring of others to no end,
Why is my heart so low and sad,
It will heal in time,
With ever-loving tender kindness,
Please be kind to my Heart,
It Loves you too no end.

Copyright
March 11th, 2001
KristiAnn


Update 2004; Sad news now. I have arthritis in my rib cage, and have to take special medications to help control my pain. I believe everything happens for a purpose in our lives. I am awaiting Social Security Disability Income (SSDI) from the Social Security Administration (SSA). I am disabled due my pain and a non operable herniated disk in my neck. I have a lawyer fighting my case with the (SSA) because; the (SSA) turned me down twice so far. My attorney is fighting my case on contingency, thus meaning I don't pay him anything unless I win my case. I have faith in God and believe He will help me through this. My Past was taken care of, so my future will be as well.


Blessings,  \o/

MsGuidedAngel

PS... Depression, I thee wed...  :'( :'( :'( :'(


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on August 01, 2004, 01:59:33 AM
I don't mind questions at all, this how we support and learn of each other YaY! I am so happy I took vocational tying in high school, tee hee.. (http://www.aimoo.com/forum/images/messageicon/wink.gif) My mother always took me too a Baptist Church while I was young. My mother is a good Christian YaY! I learned so much in the 1960s from attending Church. I truly loved Vacation Bible School woo hoo! My Earthly daddy never went to Church, he was very bitter for some reason or another about Church. It wasn't until later in his life, that he told my mother, "Do you believe in God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit". Well, this over-joyed my mother and I, so many years of praying, God answers prayers in His timing not ours. Only at this time my Earthly daddy had cancer of the rectum, colon, plus Lou Gehrigs disease. The Lou Gehrigs took my daddys mobility, and the when the cancer spread to his liver, it was very painful. One day while my mother was getting the mail and newspaper last year February 26th, 2003. The Post Office Box and newspaper is 7 miles from where they live in very Northern California. At this time my daddy was in a wheelchair because of the Lou Gehrigs disease. My daddy used to be an avid out doors man, hunting, raising horses. My mother and father lived so remotely in Very Northern California, near Eureka, California. That it usually takes 45 minutes to drive and get the mail and newspaper. While my mom was gone, my daddy rolled himself out too the middle room where his gun reloading bench was, he used my mothers .357 revolver and shot himself in the head, he committed suicide because of the cancer and Lou Gehrigs, both were Very painful. I live in Very Northern, Oregon is a city called Gresham, Oregon. A Deputy Medical Examiner came and gave me the news of what happened around 8:30pm. A Deputy Medical Examiner came and gave me the news. I had a lot of grief over this; my Earthly daddy and I were estranged from each other. We didn't talk to each other for four years. I wanted too, however he wouldn't talk to me. I am an only child of my mother and father, which hurt me a lot. What hurt my mother and I the most, we both didn't get to say goodbye to my daddy. My mother found my daddy on the floor when she came home with the mail and newspaper in a pool of blood. My mother and father were married 45 years! Not being able to call me because she was very upset about this (which, I understand). The Deputy Medical Examiner had to give me the news about my daddy. I had a job then and my employer wouldn't give me emergency time off from work. I couldn't sleep that night and I had to be at work at 9:30am that morning. A good friend of mine in Oregon came to stay with me to calm me down. I thank God for friends like her! It's a little more than a year later; my mother gets grief therapy in a support group. I haven't had any yet, I believe God has helped me with my grief. Thank God for taking this from me!! My mother and I see it this way. Since my Earthly daddy professed his Faith, my mom and I see him in Heaven, New Body, no more pain and whole again, most of all smiling. Sorry for the long story.

I Love God, when I had no daddy on Earth, I grabbed onto my Heavenly Father God (Daddy). Thank God for Jesus and the Holy Spirit, YaY! Woo hoo!

I sometimes question God about my suffering and pain. Jesus answered the question His Disciples Him about the blind man from birth, Jesus said this below;


John 9:1-4

1 AND as Jesus passed by, he saw a man which was blind from his birth.

2 And his disciples asked him, saying, Master, who did sin, this man, or his parents, that he was born blind?

3 Jesus answered, Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents: but that the works of God should be made manifest in him.

4 I must work the works of him that sent me, while it is day: the night cometh, when no man can work.

5 As long as I am in the world, I am the light of the world.

Holy Bible -- King James Version


He gives me this answer which I love called Footprints in the sand below;

Footprints in the Sand

One night a woman had a dream. She dreamed she was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes of her life. For each scene, she noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonged to her, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of her life flashed before her, she looked back at the footprints in the sand. She noticed that many times along the path of her life there was only one set of footprints. She also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in her life.

This really bothered her and she questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child, I Love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."


I have a lot of Faith in God (Daddy) He loves me for how I am no matter how I look . He takes care of me all the time. I have seen it, when I think all is lost He comes and tells me Sweetie; I am in Control, Please Trust in Me! Oh I do Trust in God, thank God for Jesus!!

I love all my Sisters forever and ever. How can I have this love?! God says for me too;

John 15:12-17

12 This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you.

13 Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.

14 Ye are my friends, if ye do whatsoever I command you.

15 Henceforth I call you not servants; for the servant knoweth not what his lord doeth: but I have called you friends; for all things that I have heard of my Father I have made known unto you.

16 Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain: that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in my name, he may give it you.

17 These things I command you, that ye love one another.


Holy Bible -- King James Version


Darlins Love is all embracing; "God's infinite Wisdom". YaY! God is in Control even when I feel like I control things He says woe young lady, Stop remember Me, uh huh, Thanks for the reminder! One of the Greatest Attributes God gave me (everyone) is learning YaY. God might have given me the smarts, but He is in the drivers Seat!


Love Always & Forever,

MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on August 01, 2004, 02:02:24 AM

I might have rods in my back, I am not sure about anything anymore.

I am not feeling very happy right now at all, I feel like crying, having no income for more than a year has hurt me very badly.  It's the Social Security Administration (SSA) and the US Government that make me angry and hurt. The USA can spend billions of dollars on Iraq and not much for the disabled here in the US.

The USA has hurt me so bad I cannot even explain how. I don't feel like living right now, it's hard when I feel the US Government don't care.

My depression is so deep, I don't know what to do sometimes, and cannot think straight either.  I feel lost and hopeless, and am loosing my knowledge that I have carried with me for so many years.

Oh, I am not the Poster of the Legal Advice, my room-mate is. When I moved to this board from Sudden Launch, I transferred a lot of posts from there.  I know nothing of legal stuff at all.

Maybe I need grief theapy for loosing my daddy to suicide and then loosing my job right after that. Plus maybe new anti-depressents as well. I have been on 100mg of Zoloft for amost four years now.

I am very tired, and need to rest........




Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on August 01, 2004, 02:03:21 AM
To add more to my depressing story. My Jeep Grand Cherokee license tags expires August 23rd, 2004.  I have no money to pay for car insurance, nor to re-register my Jeep for another two years.  And the renewal is only $54.00.

This means I cannot drive anywhere, I cannot get my Zoloft, my Trazodone, or my pain killers Vicondin, nor my others meds by myself anymore.  I blame the SSA for NOT getting my SSDI claim in order.  Again, President Bush can spend billions of dollars on Iraq and we (The Disabled) awaiting SSDI or SSI hearings don't get one red cent!!! Is this fair NOT!!!!!!!

We need new leadership in office that cares for the USA! We need an Health Care Overhaul, Social Security Administration OVERHAUL!!! and many more!  

I haven't been outside in a month, I have no energy, or drive to do anything anymore.  My initiative is gone, thanks to the SSA, and the Bush administration!!

Blah, blah, blah, Me a Broken Record that is so broken I cannot think what to say new anymore.  I might have to leave my Board for awhile and let the moderators take over. I have nothing to do, but to Administrate Kristi Ann's Haven. I haven't written one of my Poems for along time now.  Where is my Muse (Angel) when I need her signing in my ears, where is she tonight, I want to be as bright, please my Angel stay, I need you to play for me a song or two..............

Blessings,  

MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on August 01, 2004, 02:19:55 AM
I had too buy myself w/ my tax return a walker, because I am too unstable to walk with a cane anymore. The walker helps me stay stable and it's made by Nova, the same people that makes my cane above. My herniated disk in my neck makes me unstable, plus I get really bad headaches lately.  Below are pictures of the one I bought, it only weights 12lbs, it's one of Nova ligthest models. I love the basket for my purse, it takes pressure off my neck. Mine is dark blue, blue is my favorite colors YaY.

(http://www.novaortho-med.com/images/4202pl.jpg)

(http://www.novaortho-med.com/images/4202folded.jpg)

I thank God for giving me something I can walk w/ better! I'm really depressed lately too. However Church yesterday really put me in a good mood. Hopefully they have a Wednesday night service. Going to Church and being able to Praise Jesus helps me a lot!


KristiAnn




Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on August 03, 2004, 10:57:38 PM
I am getting major migraine headaches from my non-operable herniated disk in my neck, I took two Vicodins yesterday.

My Story is in desperate need of Prayer, Because I am in so Deep Depression over being severely Disabled and not having any income for more than a year..   :'( :'(


hurting in Oregon,

KristiAnn


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: jive4005 on August 06, 2004, 06:42:52 AM
Lord... Abba, please bless this saint today. Be her way-maker. Show the world Your power, greatness and love... thru her. Let Your healing powers manifest in her life. Grant her family and friends a new song of victory that they might sing it to her! Strengthen and empower, save and renew, in Jesus' name, amen

Deke


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on August 13, 2004, 03:13:31 PM
From MsKathy one of my moderators at Kristi Ann's Haven.....



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I'm placing Kristi Ann on the prayer list, but I want to start letter writing, emailing campaign for her benefit.

Kristi was born with a rare disorder in which her breast bone was fused to her backbone. She has several surgeries on her chest. As you can imagine her organs are displaced and she has difficulty breathing. She is often in pain and has difficulty walking without a cane. Kristi still takes time to work on her Christian web forum and she's an inspiration to all who visit KristiAnn's Haven ( http://ka7.proboards30.com/ ). Some days she is in such pain that we do not hear from her.

The obscurity of SSI decisions is that she is not disabled and cannot receive help for her meds (she takes anti-depressants and pain meds)or income. She has not worked nor been able to in over a year. She has written her state rep for help as she has lost her apartment and now lives with a friend who did not want to see her put out on the streets.

I asked Kristi for the address of the Social Security office where she applied and for the local media in her area.
I'm asking that we bombard these places with Kristi's story.
I will look up the TV station addresses on line and list them in this thread. If you should locate them before I do please feel free to post them here. Meanwhile here is the info she was able to give me:

Social Security Office of Portland
2625 S.E. 98th Ave.
Portland, OR 97266

MEDIA
TV Stations:

KATV Channel 2 ABC (http://www.katu.com/)
KOIN Channel 6 CBS (http://www.koin.com/)
KGW Channel 8 NBC (http://www.kgw.com/)
OPB Oregon Public Broadcasting (http://www.opb.org/)


She also gave me this as the name of the Newspaper:
   
The Oregonian Newspaper (http://www.oregonlive.com/)

Disability Resources Oregon is the rehab agency. I will be looking for the addresses as well.

Meanwhile, read Kristi's "My Story" (http://ka7.proboards30.com/index.cgi?board=hurt&action=display&num=1085317702) at her forum and write to these agencies to help her.

Thanks and stay blessed.


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Shammu on August 14, 2004, 01:00:40 AM
I have added you to the prayer list I have started, MGA.
http://forums.christiansunite.com/index.php?board=8;action=display;threadid=4713


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on August 14, 2004, 01:24:27 AM
I have added you to the prayer list I have started, MGA.
http://forums.christiansunite.com/index.php?board=8;action=display;threadid=4713

Thank You!!!! DreamWeaver ;D


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on September 01, 2004, 06:05:02 PM
Depression I thee Wed, I am tired all the time........


I am very tired right now.  My depression does to me; I am so sad right now.

My room-mate I am staying with right now.  She thinks she is a Christian, when she goes to Church she is different.  When she comes home she is NOT a Christian at all. She is into Pornography and thinks Bestiality is okay too. YUCK!!

I am trying to count my Blessings Staying here until I get my Social Security Disability Income. It's very hard on me though.  Once I do get my SSDI, I am moving out on my alone to Astoria, Oregon (http://www.oldoregon.com/).  I need to be alone with God and me again.  I DO NOT like my room-mates anger at the World at all anymore.  I feel like I am walking on egg shells all the time now.

I am so unhappy with the Social Security Administration (http://www.ssa.gov/) because they are taking a too long to get my hearing for my SSDI in order!!!!  I have been waiting for more than one year and this is making very depression and sad.

I gave my heart to God along time ago, I trust Him to keep me safe through all I am going through.  It's no fun to have Stainless Steels wires holding your rib cage at all.  Plus, I have Rods in my back where they removed my sternum bone.  I have a non-operable Herniated Disk in my upper Neck. I walk with a walker now, because of two bad knees.  I have arthritis in my whole body now.  I have lived in pain since birth; I would rather be in Heaven right now in no more PAIN!  It's not fun to take Vicodin for my pain everyday, and in Oregon, I can get arrested for taking this while I am driving I have heard.  I know it's a narcotic and I am very careful with this. I don't drink, never smoked, nor ever took drugs.  I couldn't smoke even if I tried; it would kill me, because I have very weak lungs from the doctors operating on them, plus my heart too. Even if I got hit by someone in my center sternum bone, my rib cage would collapse in and I would die from this.


Crying in Oregon  :'(

Love Always,

KristiAnn
AKA
MsGuidedAngel



Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: sincereheart on September 02, 2004, 05:04:38 AM
I don't mind questions at all,
I have some.....

my Earthly daddy and I were estranged from each other.
I think I read somewhere that he had disowned you. Why?

...and then loosing my job right after that.
What kind of work did you do and why did you lose your job?

My Jeep Grand Cherokee....
With no money, how did you get the vehicle?

Bush....
How did Bush cause your problems?

My room-mate I am staying with right now.
Did she move in with you? Or did you move in with her?

When she comes home she is NOT a Christian at all.
???

I am so unhappy with the Social Security Administration because they are taking a too long to get my hearing for my SSDI in order!!!!
How long does it normally take?

Praying for you!  :)



Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on September 15, 2004, 04:41:57 AM
I don't mind questions at all,
I have some.....

my Earthly daddy and I were estranged from each other.
I think I read somewhere that he had disowned you. Why?

...and then loosing my job right after that.
What kind of work did you do and why did you lose your job?

My Jeep Grand Cherokee....
With no money, how did you get the vehicle?

Bush....
How did Bush cause your problems?

My room-mate I am staying with right now.
Did she move in with you? Or did you move in with her?

When she comes home she is NOT a Christian at all.
???

I am so unhappy with the Social Security Administration because they are taking a too long to get my hearing for my SSDI in order!!!!
How long does it normally take?

Praying for you!  :)




My daddy was not happy when I divoced and then like me at this at all.  He believe my Ex and not me at all.  My mother found out this year my Ex lies and she don't talk to him at all amymore!!

My mom and I have always been close, even when My daddy disowned me!!

I was a onsite manager for a big mini storage, I went over my duties to help people and bring the property from the bottom to the top in the district.  My district manager did Not like me and wrote me up for things when I was at my daddy funeral and when I flew down to help my mother spread my daddys ashes.  I was disabled when I was working, however I refused to think I was, that part was my own fault.  Being written up for things I did Not do was Not my Fault!!

I own the Jeep Grand Cherokee outright, I don't owe a dime for it.  I sold my Ex husbands wood-working tools for $1500.00, I then got car insurace for my 1995 Jeep and Registered it for another two years in Oregon.

The only thing I blame the Bush Administration is for spending more money over seas to protect their investments, instead of him helping the USA out.  The Bush Administration and the Social Security Administration need Overhauls Badly!!!

I had to move in with her, otherwise I would be homeless on the streets.  The reason I said when she comes home she is Not a Christian, this is because of anger, pornogphy and more, and don't act the same at home at Church!

I wish, I knew how long the Social Security Administration took!!!!  I have been moneyless for more than one year now. I got an attorney in December 2003 for my SSDI, to help me fight for it.  The doctor I just seen for my Neurologist appointments asked my right off if I had an attorney, I told him yes for my SSDI.

Here is more below about my Neurologist Doctor's Appointment;


I am sorry I haven't been around here everyone.  :'(


I had my Neurologist appointment today at 8:45AM and just got back home at 8PM.  The doctor found out as I already knew, I am right handed and am weaker on my whole right side, my left arm is a lot stronger than my right!!  I don't have much feeling on my right side of my body at all. They X-Rayed my neck two side profiles, one back and one right through my mouth.  I was shown the X-Rays by the Very nice female X-ray tech.  I knew what I had seen before, but now it's worse.  Just with X-rays you can clearly see my herniated disk in the upper part of my neck.  Now I am going to have my thrid MRI on my neck, then an electrical test with very small needles to test my muscles all over my body.  I did NOT take a pain pill (Vicodin) before I seen this very nice Neurologist Doctor.  I took one after I left there and another Vicodin pain pill just now at 8:10PM.  I cannot even Raise my right arm up very high without it feeling like someone is putting a knife in my shoulder joints, it hurts that much.  My room-mate has to help dress me now as I cannot do this for myself to much at all.

So, Please Everyone, DO enjoy Kristi Ann's Haven (http://ka7.proboards30.com/index.cgi) while I am gone. If you have any questions please do ask anyone of my Moderators and they will help you the best they can.  Everyone knows MsGuidedAngel is me KristiAnn the Main Administrator of Kristi Ann's Haven, but not many people know webmistress is me to KristiAnn as well.  I am looking for promote one of my Moderators to my Second in charge to Administrator, while I am gone.  I would ask that someone be here at Kristi Ann's Haven to help Moderate and Post the C.H. Spurgeon's Morning and Evening Devotional in the Bible Study while I am gone.  I will help you how I do this!!  Please all Moderators do not delete posts without talking to me First!!!   The new Promoted Administrator, All I ask is that you would leave all the Headers and Footers alone.

I am going to go through some Very Stressful tests soon on my entire body.  So , please bear with me while I am away!!  I hurt a lot in pain, that it tires me out very easy.


I am Severely Disabled and Depressed at the sametime. :'(  This is NOT satan doing this, it's how I was born with most all my aliments!!  It's no fun being born with a breast bone fused to my back bone.  Now I am facing even more surgeries on all my spinal cord areas and chest rib cage areas....

Hurting in Oregon,   :'( :'( :'(

KristiAnn
AKA
MsGuidedAngel




Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on October 02, 2004, 12:23:48 AM
Up and Coming Tests


Coming this October 5th, 2004 starting at 9AM Pacific Standard time. I will have my Third MRI on my Neck then afterwards an electrical test of all my muscles with small needles to find out why I am loosing feeling from my entire right side. I am getting migraine headaches everyday, and taking my pain meds for my pain management.

I am facing more surgeries on my chest and back now my neck and knees too. My arthiris has been making me super tired lately. I am also forgetting a lot of things too .. hmmmm..

I know God Loves me, I am super tired of my pain since birth. I want to go to Heaven, But, I truly think God is Not finished with me yet. So for now, I am Hangin around till Heaven Bound.

Blessings, \o/

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel

   


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on October 06, 2004, 08:20:19 PM
Hello Everyone,

I am numb
Current Mood: sad


I had my third MRI today and now I have fourth MRI this Friday again. My Herniated is Very bad and they want to more check it again. My bad disk is the second down from my brain and it's really bad. They are going to do more MRI for me Neck and my Back where my breast bone that was fused to my back and my lower back too.

I am mad at the Oregon Health Plan right now, when I went for my other two doctor’s tests and my electromiligram. The receptionist checked with the secretary, and when they checked to my Oregon Health Plan online, it’s said that I did not my Health Plan! I was mad that about, so now I have to get too the office when in Gresham, Oregon to pickup temporally card. Then I can have more doctors and long MRI long for my sprial cord for were my breast bone was fused to my back and my lower back as a well, and my electromiligram this Friday October 8th 2004 at 9AM in the morning again in downtown Portland, Oregon.

When I seen my MRI today for my bad Herniated disk, its worse now. I took a Vicodin before my test at my breakfast this morning. The nurse gave me wheelchair to my MRI and they had to put something around my neck and another strap to hold my head and neck in the right position. This took an hour today, and they put headphones on me instead of ears plugs. So, I listen music that made me relax when I was in the tunnel MRI. After that, I had to take another Vicodin for my pain. Now I am really tired and need to rest for a few days.



I am Very Moody


I've not had my Zoloft for three days now, I have been taking 100mg of Zoloft since 1999, and this is the first time I have not had it.  :'(

I just cried when my mother called me from California just now. I am tired of pain since birth, I don't want anymore!!!!!!!!


I am cying  :'(


Today my room-mate seen that someone use keys and scratched my drives side of my 1995 Jeep Grand Cherokee!! :'(



Love Always, \o/

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Symphony on October 06, 2004, 10:32:16 PM

Wow, I haven't read through all this, KristiAnn, but I can't believe no one else has responded.  Since January, too.
I'm sorry about that.


I want to read through this this evening.  But I don't want to print it out(too much paper).

So I'll have to log back on with my laptop where I can be more comfortable when I read it.

But so far looks like lots of suffering on your part.  Ouch.   :-\


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Symphony on October 07, 2004, 08:24:59 AM
Oops - sorry, sincereheart  :-[, DW  :-[, and jive  :-[.  My big mistake.

Thank you all for your good responses.   :)

I see now that some have responded.  Whew, it's next morning, I can see a little better now.


Whew, KristiAnn, so sorry about your eternal discomfort, pain and hardship.

Whew.  

It sounds like your roommate helps you, tho she gets angry and, terribly, is into the porn thing.  Yuck is right.

But she helps you dress.   At least that is good.

Boy, sure sorry about your dad, KristiAnn.  I'm so sorry.  So much grief in the world.

I think that's how Brian Keith died, a few years back.  He had an illness - can't 'member if it was some kind of cancer, or what.  But he finally ended his own life, that way, too.  He was a favorite TV actor of the 1960s.  Maybe you remember him, I think you might have been old enough.  The TV sitcom, Family Affair?

But he always looked a little ill there, even at that time, in the show.

But I sure am sorry about your dad, and your situation...


Praying for KristiAnn, in Oregon....     :)




Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on October 11, 2004, 12:36:27 AM
Last night (October 8th, 2004) at 6PM was my 4th MRI, this time they only did my lower back. I have been so confused lately; I goofed on the dates and times. My MRI was at 6PM and my other tests are on October 12th, 2004 at 9AM in the morning.

My dizziness caught up with me, and I felt really bad driving to the hospital. I threw up in the hospital in a fichus tree planter just before my 4th MRI. I am still not feeling well at all. I have been without my Anti-depressants my 100mg of Zoloft for 6 days now, I ran out of them 6 days ago. I have tried to call the Old Town Clinic for an appointment to see my doctor and all I get is a recording to push all kinds of buttons, and I finally left a message more than one with No return calls back to me!!

I drove home after my 4th MRI and had to rest in my Jeep Grand Cherokee before I could walk again inside without being dizzy. The only thing I have been able to keep down for two days in two apples and some water. One apple a day is all I have had for two days.

I need to file a lawsuit against Capital One Credit Card for having a collection agency call me everyday and sometime more than once in one day. I have told them more than once I am severely disabled and have not had an income since July 21st, 2003. In fact this one man named Aaron calls me everyday and told Katherine she is a Control Freak. One collection female told me I must get the money from family or friends to pay them. My bill was only $200.00 when I lost my job, I called them right away and let them to stop all charges on my Credit Card and they did not, now the bill in over $900.00 and I have Not used this card since I lost my job!!

I am getting sick again and dizzy, So, I am going to lay down again, maybe watch some television for awhile.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*


I filed bankruptcy Chaper 7 back in I think 1997.

I am an emotional mess being without my Zoloft for 7 days now.  I was taking 100mg of Zoloft a day since 2001. What doctor in their right mind would let someone they're treating run of of their anti-depressents, NONE!!

My doctor shows no care for the people she takes care of!

These are my aliments below;



1 ) Anxiety (http://www.adaa.org/AnxietyDisorderInfor/OverviewAnxDis.cfm)

2 ) Arthritis (http://www.arthritis.org/)

3 ) Astigmatism (http://www.allaboutvision.com/conditions/astigmatism.htm)

4 ) Birth Defect (http://www.shrinershq.org/whatsnewarch/archives01/chest8-01.html)

5 ) Broken Teeth (http://www.dental--health.com/faq_brokenteeth.html)

6 ) Color Blind (http://www.toledo-bend.com/colorblind/aboutCB.html)

7 ) Depression (http://www.psycom.net/depression.central.html)  

8 ) Heart Burn (http://www.heartburnalliance.org/)

9 ) Herniated Disk (http://www.mayoclinic.com/invoke.cfm?objectid=0000C8FB-D0CA-1B77-962480AEBC2F006D)

10 ) Sleep Disorder (http://www.sleepnet.com/)


:'( :'( :'(




Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on October 11, 2004, 06:21:27 PM
Okay, I know God Helps those who help themselves sometimes.


I called my doctors office, they told me to call my Pharmacy for my Zoloft. I did this and the Pharmacy faxed my doctors office, then less than 2 hours later my Pharmacy called me back and said my Zoloft is ready to pick up, YaY!!


Love Always, \o/

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Shammu on October 11, 2004, 07:23:42 PM
Okay, I know God Helps those who help themselves sometimes.


I called my doctors office, they told me to call my Pharmacy for my Zoloft. I did this and the Pharmacy faxed my doctors office, then less than 2 hours later my Pharmacy called me back and said my Zoloft is ready to pick up, YaY!!


Love Always, \o/

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel

;D


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on October 11, 2004, 10:40:01 PM
I see two Neurologists tomorrow October 12th, 2004 at 9AM in the morning for more tests!

I am still getting Migraine Headaches everyday..   :'( :'(


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Symphony on October 12, 2004, 12:52:16 AM

Ouch, MsGuidedAngel.

Migraine's are murder.

Maybe try some rosemary in hot, steaming water - like a tea.

ANd maybe a little cayenne pepper in it too.  Might help dilate your blood vessels, helping for easier blood flow.

Sip it slowly.  It doesnt taste too bad, and might relieve a little tension.


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on October 12, 2004, 06:29:29 PM
Well I do Not have good news after my doctors visit today.  The Two MRIs I had one for my neck and the other for my lower back.

I have a herniated disk in my lower back between L4 - L5, and my neck at which I knew I had is C5 - C6.  They are going to start me on therapy right away, and I see the neurologist again December 1st, 2004 at 11:30AM.

Dr. Wilson is a Very nice doctor and explained my MRI pictures of my neck and lower back in very easy detail so I could understand it. He gave me the MRI pictures and I am going to scan them unto my hard-drive to save.

I know know why I have a hard time sleeping, two herniations in my back are causing me a lot of pain!


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: TigerLily on October 12, 2004, 11:38:58 PM
Im sorry to hear about all your pain and problems MGA..
Alot of us on here totally understand pain and all that goes  with it.. sadly.. guess we all need a full body overhaul done from the Heavens garage eh! hehe..  :D
anyways , ill be praying for you
Tigerlily


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: felix102 on October 14, 2004, 12:49:53 AM
Sister KristiAnn,

You're always suffering so I just wanted to let you know that you're always in my prayers...until you're completely healed or when you go live with God.  ;D


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on October 20, 2004, 10:31:08 PM
October 20th, 2004 6:27PM pst

My first Physical therapy appointment I got lost at Mount Hood Medical Center, it's a very spread out BIG hospital in Gresham, Oregon. So, I didn't have any physical therapy, I just filled out the paper work. So now Next time I don't have to fill out anymore paper work.

My next Physical Therapy Appointment is tomorrow (October 21st, 2004) at Mount Hood Medical Center Suite 106 at 12noon. I am getting cold chills down my spine again from my C5-C6 ruptured disk and cold chills from my L4-L5 ruptured disk up my spine and down my legs. I might be in a wheel chair soon, both of my knees are grinding and poping as I walk.

I have been in so much pain lately this is why I haven't posted much at all. I am super tired.

Ooopsy, I have some wonderful News though, sorry I forgot. I called my Attorney today (October 19th, 2004) and talked to the paralegal Steve who is assiting my lawyer. I called to tell them I have my Third and Fourth MRI pictures, Steve got all excitied and said wonderful that I have the MRI pictures and they are calling me into their office sometime in December 2004 to get ready for my Trial with the Social Security Administration, I am seeing them for a Pre Trial set up YaY!!

Love Always, \o/

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel
   


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on November 05, 2004, 12:20:49 AM
Novemeber 4th, 2004 7:02PM pst

I went and seen my doctor today, and she gave me all my prescriptions for six months this time. Instead of her only giving me 30 pills of Vicodin, she gave me 60 this month. I need to see her next month again and get a report from the Neurologist Doctor about my Two Ruptured Disks in my back.

I had Physical Therapy today and they did traction on my neck for my C5-C6 ruptured disk and my therapist is going to see if my Neurologist Doctor will approve of a home traction device that I can use for my neck! This is more than any other therapist has ever done for me. I have to wait and see if the Oregon Health Plan that us Federally Funded will cover the cost of it. This is because I have had no income since July 2003.

I have a migraine headache, I took a vicodin pain pill about 1 hour ago and I am super tried. I am fighting from crying, because I am hurting badly for not having income for almost two years now...


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Symphony on November 05, 2004, 12:31:29 AM

Houdy do, MsGuided angel.    :)


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on December 08, 2004, 02:43:46 PM
December 8th, 2004 11:07AM pst

I seen my Neurologist Doctor yesterday. He read me the Report from my 3rd and 4th MRI's. He has given me a prescription for a home traction device for my C5-C6 ruptured disk. And one for a new neck brace as my old one is worn out. However, he did tell me my L4-L5 rupture is really bad on one side towards the spinal cord with not enough room for my nerves to go through. He still thinks I am not a candidate for surgery for either disk rupture. To me this makes me upset, I have been living in this Pain of my two disk ruptures for more than 10 years now. And my birth defect, arthritis since birth. No one ever Looks at my birth defect anymore!

He (the Neurologist) also was going to make an appointment with a Neurosurgeon for both of my disk ruptures. I was excited leaving his office knowing soon hopefully something could be done about my pain. When I got home there was a message on my answering machine from Doctor Wilson's office saying;

"The Oregon Health Plan (http://www.dhs.state.or.us/healthplan/) will NOT cover me going to see an Neurosurgeon unless it's life threatening! GRRRRRRRRR. This means I CANNOT get my two ruptured disks at C5-C6 and L4-L5 fixes at all in any surgery!! The Oregon Health Plan does the same with my two Broken Teeth (My two back bottom molars), I get the same story, unless it's an Emergency, then they only cover pulling them and NOT fixing them!

SOMETHING is wrong HERE!! What is Wrong with the USA and it's Health Care!!!!!!!!!!! The Oregon Health Plan is Federally Funded........

My Neurologist Doctor is continuing Light Physical Therapy for me still. I have had it with Physical Therapy! I have been doing this for 10 years when they found my first rupture at C5-C6, it lasted for a little bit then ended. I then revert back to the pain and Migraine headaches I get everyday!

I know God is testing me, I just don't know how long I can keep Living in Pain since my Birth!!  :'( :'(


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Patzt on December 08, 2004, 04:25:41 PM

KristiAnn, do you know if there's a Dental College in your area?  I've just been through 18 months of dental treatment in London, Ontario (about 2 hours from where I live) and the cost is minimal.  And since my husband died, my income was cut drastically so they let me pay such a tiny amount each month with no interest.  And you get a better job done at a Dental College as they have the time to spend and the professor is right there making sure that the work is done perfectly.

My friend found out that there's one in Edmonton, Alberta and so she travelled to there to get to partial plates done and she's so happy with the work.

So this might be something you could check for your teeth problems.  



Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on December 12, 2004, 08:17:52 PM

KristiAnn, do you know if there's a Dental College in your area?  I've just been through 18 months of dental treatment in London, Ontario (about 2 hours from where I live) and the cost is minimal.  And since my husband died, my income was cut drastically so they let me pay such a tiny amount each month with no interest.  And you get a better job done at a Dental College as they have the time to spend and the professor is right there making sure that the work is done perfectly.

My friend found out that there's one in Edmonton, Alberta and so she travelled to there to get to partial plates done and she's so happy with the work.

So this might be something you could check for your teeth problems.  


Dear Pat,

Those are wonder Suggestions SweetAngelSis!

However, I have No Money at all to pay for any dental work..  :'(

I hope they can take the Severely Disabled with no money for free hopefully...

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

December 12th, 2004 5:15PM pst

My Depression is Very Severe right now, due to my Severe Disabilities I have and no income to take care of my monthly needs since the year 2003..

I have been in contact with Joni and Friends! (http://www.joniandfriends.org/), this is so I can get an Electric Wheelchair. I am so weak in my both knees now I can barly walk even w/ my walker. I will be Lord Willing in an Electric WheelChair soon, as my upper body cannot push a wheelchair with my arms. My C5-C6 ruptured disk, takes my strength and causes a lot of pain, while my Severe Ruptured disk at L4-L5 is taking my lower body by causing pain in the lower part of my body. My complete Right side of my body is weak and I take Vicodin everyday for my pain.

So, now hopefully people can understand why I am severely depressed. Being with a Severe Birth Defect as well, and Arthritis and Color Blind (all rare), I DO have a right to ask God Why sometimes!!


Love n' Hugs, \o/

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: sincereheart on December 14, 2004, 08:14:48 AM
Quote
I DO have a right to ask God Why sometimes!!

We all hurt today, folks, but we are asking the wrong questions.
We are asking, "Why, why, why?"
Don't ask why, ask what!
"What can I become because of the situation? How can I glorify God?"
~David Ring

 :)


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Jemidon2004 on December 14, 2004, 08:24:22 AM
Most are asking why, but refusing to look at the situation. Woe unto me they say. Woe is me, Woe is me. I believe if we quit focusing on complaining about our troubles and going to God for the help that we need to overcome them, we as a Body of Christ would be a whole lot better off. It does no good to try to ask why over and over, because half the time, we won't figure out why on our own. I"m not saying that we as Christian's don't have the right to question God. shoot I do it a lot of the time, but I just accept it and keep right on trucking. This is a lesson best learned early, instead of late. Just a few thoughts and I don't mean to sound harsh, but sometimes that's the way it comes across. I apologize if it may sound that way. God Bless.

Joshua


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on December 21, 2004, 09:34:42 PM
You all, I am in a lot of pain that I have no control over!!

December 21st, 2004 5:45PM pst

I am so hurting today. My right of my body is very hurting me. Both of my knees are popped in and out of joint, now my right hip is doing the same popped and in and out joint. I took a Vicodin and is only help me a little bit.  My neck has been hurting so much everyday I have been wearing my neck brace, plus my neck pains from my C5-C6 disk rupture in my neck I am loosing sleep from the pain. I am wearing a back brace now, as my lower right hip is hurting very badly from my ruptured Disk L4-L5.

I can Not believe that this stupid "Van Ru" (http://www.vanru.com/) called me today. Plus they have been called about everyday and hung up when I say hello or my room-mate says hello on her own telephone line. The Van Ru people have been hung of us than done and Don't say anything and hung up all the time!! Van Ru is a Credit Corporation and they hang of me everyday. I have told them, that is phone number is NOT my phone, it's my room-mate phone. They say I gave them this Phone number and I never did this. They got it from ID and this is illeag to call me when it's not my phone number!! I have told them more than once I am cripped and Severely Disabled, they do NOT care and call me any way....

I am so Depressed this Christmas Season. I have NO family in Oregon. I cannot afford to drive to my mothers this year for Christmas either. SO, Please Everyone, I HAVE NO FAMILY in Oregon at ALL! I am NOT happy right now. I get headaches Everyday....


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Symphony on December 21, 2004, 11:25:36 PM

Thank you, MsGuided.

I'm sorry you feel so down, right now, MsGuided, and I pray for your physical relief from this pain, and for your healing from this pain, and for your confident resting in Him...


...in Jesus Name...    :)

And you just ask God why just as much as you want, and for His leading...

and I'm doing the same!    :)






Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Soldier4Christ on December 22, 2004, 12:50:59 AM
When Paul was afflicted with a "thorn in the flesh" he asked why. The Lord gave him an answer. (2 Cor 12:9)

Sister, I can empathize with you. I am afflicted with an undiagnosed  ailment that causes me severe pain from head to toe. No amount of drugs provides any sort of relief and I have tried them all. I am not one that caves to pain. I went through many surgeries and never used pain killers afterwards but this is worse than even the open heart surgery that I had.

When the pain gets to severe to handle any longer I go to the Lord in prayer, meditating on Him and His word. It does help me.

My prayers are for you that you will receive some answers and relief from your pain.



Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Symphony on December 22, 2004, 11:08:13 PM

Prayer for BOTH MsGuided and Pastor Roger...



    :-[


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on January 04, 2005, 03:55:03 PM
Updates below;

December 23rd, 2004 10:09pst

Last night I went to my Physical Therapy at 4:30PM pst, They asked me about my bill, I told them I have had no money since the year 2003. They told me the "Oregon Health Plan" (http://www.dhs.state.or.us/healthplan/) will NOT COVER or pay for my Physical Therapy at all!  They won't even help pay for a Neurosurgeon to even look at my really bad ruptured disks at C5-C6 or my L4-L5.

SOMETHING is WRONG with the Health Care in the USA!!! The Oregon Health Plan is Federally Funded!!!!

Two days before Christmas "Van Ru credit Corporation" (http://www.vanru.com/) called again today just about 5 minutes ago, and said I gave them and "Captial One" (http://www.capitalone.com/) this telephone number. This Telephone Number Does NOT belong to me at all, and I Never gave it to them, Captial One got this telephone number from their caller ID!! I have had no money since the year 2003 and They DO NOT understand, when I say I am Severely Disabled, and Crippled.

I don't have any family in Oregon, nor can I go anywhere for Christmas with No Income since the year 2003. I al so depressed because I cannot even see my mother ar all in Northern, California.


I know Jesus Loves me, and God Loves me, so Please Help  :-/ Me Lord Jesus!

I wear a neck brace and back brace most all the time. My Center Breast bone (Sternum Bone) was fused to my back bone when I was born, so I have spinal problems in  my Neck, Lower Back and Center Back. Stainless steel wires hold my rebuilt rib cage togther at my Sternum bone...

I am super tired right now and am going to rest, I took a Vicodin and I am going to take a nap for a little bit..

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: larrynboys on January 04, 2005, 07:15:45 PM
Quote
don't have any family in Oregon

Dearest Kristi:
 If you consider Gods family your family than you do have family here in Oregon , and it would be my pleasure to get my wife and give you a visit, unfortunately we are also struggling financially, but that doesn't stop us from visiting with each other.
Love in Christ : Larry&Terra:)


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on January 06, 2005, 02:29:00 AM
January 5th, 2005 6:44PM pst

I have a New Neck Brace again, thank God! My neck disk rupture at C5-C6 causes migraine headaches, and makes my whole right side weak.

While my lower back disk rupture at L4-L5 causes my lower back and legs are Very weak now. I am super tired all the time from the pain I am in.

It's been Really cold in Gresham, Oregon, right now outside it's 35 degrees with a wind chill of 25 degrees, Very Cold outside and ice don't melt all day in places.

I haven't gone outside or anywhere in months now, I am so depressed, I don't feel like getting ready to go anywhere. With No Income Since the Year 2003, I have No drive or ambition to do anything I used to do.

Being Severely Disabled is Not my Choice, nor is the Depression, or the Arthritis, and color blindness. I know God isn't finished with me yet on His Earth. I Hurt Very badly, that I am not online as much as I used to be.

I am super tired........

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on January 27, 2005, 01:58:00 PM
January 27th, 2005 10:12AM pst

I am So Stressed and Depressed over Everything. For one no income since the year 2003. This is because the Social Security Administration (SSA) is VERY slow with my Social Security Disability Income (SSDI), they won't even give me my Supplemental Security Income (SSI) either...

My Disabilities are not going to get better at all with the health care plan I have. My two ruptured disks are worse now. I get sharp pains down the middle and right side of my body from my C5-C6 disk rupture in my neck. While my really bad disk rupture in my lower back at L4-L5 causes me to loose sleep and I cannot walk to well at anymore.

As for muscle relaxers and my pain pills, my current doctor will Not refill my pain medications at all. I am not sure she would give me muscle relaxers either.

I cannot life anything heavy at all, I have to support my neck with a neck brace most all day. I have a special pillow somewhere in mini storage, and I don't know where it is. My friend whom is paying for my mini storage is retired as well. All my family pictures are in there. I don't know where anything is...

Being Born Severely Disabled is Not my choice, nor is all my disabilities that I have. Depression is NOT my Choice either!! I have no ambition or drive to do anything anymore. I feel like giving up on life!! I know God is with me, and I Do Love Jesus, He is my All in All!!


Severely Disabled and Depresed,

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on February 05, 2005, 09:43:20 PM
February 1st, 2005 12Noon pst

My Attorney's office called me just about 20 minutes ago. I spoke with Doyle there. He said I have a Pre-Trial Hearing in their office February 7th, 2005 at 2PM pst for my Social Security Disability Income (SSDI). I have to get Reports from my current doctor and the Neurologist plus the Therapist before February 7th, to bring into my lawyers office. This is exciting News for me, Hopefully soon I will have my SSDI so I can move and Pay my friend back whom has been paying for my mini storage where all my belongings are at since the year 2003.

I hurt Very badly today. My Lower back disk rupture at L4-L5 is causing me a lot of pain. I am wearing a back brace and my neck brace. I have No Pain pills anymore, I need to call my doctor tomorrow and set up an appointment to see her for my pain medications. I cannot call today they are only there until 11:45AM answering the telephone, So, I have to call tomorrow in the Morning! I am super tired, I coughed a lot early this morning. I hope and Pray I am not coming down with a cold, or Bronchitis, this is because they turn into Pneumonia for me. I've had Pneumonia four times in my life already, it makes me weaker everytime I get it. I get Pneumonia because of my birth defect "Pectus Excavatum". My Lungs and Heart were operated on during my surgery in 1965. My birth defect was severe, this is why I was Unconscious for 4 days after my surgery.

I am going to rest now. The pain tires me out Very easy. Please keep Praying for my Social Security Disability Income (SSDI). I am Severely Disabled and because of no income since the year 2003 Depressed and Stressed.

February 5th, 2005 10:47AM pst.

I am Super Sick right now and at the begining stages of Pneumomia in my lungs...

I get Pneumonia Very Easy due to my Birth Defect...

Individuals with Moderate to Severe Pectus Birth Defects may experience shortness of breath (due to the lung compression), exercise intolerance, chest pain (due to the ribcage not being able to expand), costochondrial pain (due to inflammation of the costochondrial joint), arrhythmias, increased asthmatic symptoms, susceptibility to inflammatory illness in the lungs and Pneumonia.

I am coughing bad stuff out of my lungs. I have weak lungs as they were operated on the same time as my birth defect surgery.


Please Pray for me and my Health, plus my SSDI!!

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on February 08, 2005, 03:07:05 AM
February 7th, 2005 11:10PM pst

My Room-mate suggested taking me to the Emergency Room today at OHSU Hospital (http://www.ohsu.edu/) , good thing to!

I have Pneumonia again, this is the fifth time I've had it. I'll be on Antibiotics for 10 days. The Doctor suggested to me to get a Pneumonia Shot, that they are good for almost four years. From now on out, I'm going to get this! It's a Good thing I went to the hospital. If my current Pneumonia I have got any worse, I would be in the hospital for a month.

I am super Sick and will be off my Computer for a week or more. Please Moderators, Please Welcome Everyone and do some of my admin duties Pretty Please!

I had re-shedule my Lawyers Pre-Trail hearing for a week from now.  This is for my Social Security Disability Hearing from the Social Security Administration. My Next appointment with my Lawyer is February 16th, 2005 at 1:30PM.

Love n' Hugs, \o/

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on February 13, 2005, 11:29:16 PM
I get Pneumonia Very easy due to my Birth Defect in my Chest area Rib Cage that was Rebuilt. At the same surgery, both my Lungs and Heart were operated on.

Individuals with Moderate to Severe Pectus Birth Defects may experience shortness of breath (due to the lung compression), exercise intolerance, chest pain (due to the ribcage not being able to expand), costochondrial pain (due to inflammation of the costochondrial joint), arrhythmias, increased asthmatic symptoms, susceptibility to inflammatory illness in the lungs and Pneumonia.

Please Read the Information I post about Pneumonia, this is a Very Serious!!

WHAT IS PNEUMONIA?

Pneumonia is a serious infection or inflammation of your lungs. The air sacs in the lungs fill with pus and other liquid. Oxygen has trouble reaching your blood. If there is too little oxygen in your blood, your body cells can't work properly. Because of this and spreading infection through the body pneumonia can cause death.
    
Pneumonia can have over 30 different causes.    

Until 1936, pneumonia was the No.1 cause of death in the U.S. Since then, the use of antibiotics brought it under control. In 2000, pneumonia and influenza combined ranked as the seventh leading cause of death.

Pneumonia affects your lungs in two ways. Lobar pneumonia affects a section (lobe) of a lung. Bronchial pneumonia (or bronchopneumonia) affects patches throughout both lungs.

CAUSES OF PNEUMONIA

Pneumonia is not a single disease. It can have over 30 different causes. There are five main causes of pneumonia:
  • Bacteria
  • Viruses
  • Mycoplasmas
  • Other infectious agents, such as fungi - including pneumocystis
  • Various chemicals


BACTERIAL PNEUMONIA

Bacterial pneumonia can attack anyone from infants through the very old. Alcoholics, the debilitated, post-operative patients, people with respiratory diseases or viral infections and people who have weakened immune systems are at greater risk.

Pneumonia bacteria are present in some healthy throats. When body defenses are weakened in some way, by illness, old age, malnutrition, general debility or impaired immunity, the bacteria can multiply and cause serious damage. Usually, when a person's resistance is lowered, bacteria work their way into the lungs and inflame the air sacs.

The tissue of part of a lobe of the lung, an entire lobe, or even most of the lung's five lobes becomes completely filled with liquid (this is called "consolidation"). The infection quickly spreads through the bloodstream and the whole body is invaded.

The streptococcus pneumoniae is the most common cause of bacterial pneumonia. It is one form of pneumonia for which a vaccine is available.

Symptoms: The onset of bacterial pneumonia can vary from gradual to sudden. In the most severe cases, the patient may experience shaking chills, chattering teeth, severe chest pain, and a cough that produces rust-colored or greenish mucus.

A person's temperature may rise as high as 105 degrees F. The patient sweats profusely, and breathing and pulse rate increase rapidly. Lips and nailbeds may have a bluish color due to lack of oxygen in the blood. A patient's mental state may be confused or delirious.



VIRAL PNEUMONIA

Half of all pneumonias are believed to be caused by viruses. More and more viruses are being identified as the cause of respiratory infection, and though most attack the upper respiratory tract, some produce pneumonia, especially in children. Most of these pneumonias are not serious and last a short time.

Infection with the influenza virus may be severe and occasionally fatal. The virus invades the lungs and multiplies, but there are almost no physical signs of lung tissue becoming filled with fluid. It finds many of its victims among those who have pre-existing heart or lung disease or are pregnant.

Symptoms: The initial symptoms of viral pneumonia are the same as influenza symptoms: fever, a dry cough, headache, muscle pain, and weakness. Within 12 to 36 hours, there is increasing breathlessness; the cough becomes worse and produces a small amount of mucus. There is a high fever and there may be blueness of the lips.

In extreme cases, the patient has a desperate need for air and extreme breathlessness. Viral pneumonias may be complicated by an invasion of bacteria, with all the typical symptoms of bacterial pneumonia.

Continued Below!


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on February 13, 2005, 11:30:57 PM
MYCOPLASMA PNEUMONIA

Because of its somewhat different symptoms and physical signs, and because the course of the illness differed from classical pneumococcal pneumonia, mycoplasma pneumonia was once believed to be caused by one or more undiscovered viruses and was called "primary atypical pneumonia."

Identified during World War II, mycoplasmas are the smallest free-living agents of disease in humankind, unclassified as to whether bacteria or viruses, but having characteristics of both. They generally cause a mild and widespread pneumonia. They affect all age groups, occurring most frequently in older children and young adults. The death rate is low, even in untreated cases.

Symptoms: The most prominent symptom of mycoplasma pneumonia is a cough that tends to come in violent attacks, but produces only sparse whitish mucus. Chills and fever are early symptoms, and some patients experience nausea or vomiting. Patients may experience profound weakness which lasts for a long time.



OTHER KINDS OF PNEUMONIA

Pneumocystis carinii pneumonia (PCP) is caused by an organism believed to be a fungus. PCP is the first sign of illness in many persons with AIDS.

PCP can be successfully treated in many cases. It may recur a few months later, but treatment can help to prevent or delay its recurrence.

Other less common pneumonias may be quite serious and are occurring more often. Various special pneumonias are caused by the inhalation of food, liquid, gases or dust, and by fungi. Foreign bodies or a bronchial obstruction such as a tumor may promote the occurrence of pneumonia, although they are not causes of pneumonia.

Rickettsia (also considered an organism somewhere between viruses and bacteria) cause Rocky Mountain spotted fever, Q fever, typhus and psittacosis, diseases that may have mild or severe effects on the lungs. Tuberculosis pneumonia is a very serious lung infection and extremely dangerous unless treated early.



TREATING PNEUMONIA

If you develop pneumonia, your chances of a fast recovery are greatest under certain conditions: if you're young, if your pneumonia is caught early, if your defenses against disease are working well, if the infection hasn't spread, and if you're not suffering from other illnesses.

In the young and healthy, early treatment with antibiotics can cure bacterial pneumonia, speed recovery from mycoplasma pneumonia, and a certain percentage of rickettsia cases. There is not yet a general treatment for viral pneumonia, although antiviral drugs are used for certain kinds. Most people can be treated at home.

The drugs used to fight pneumonia are determined by the germ causing the pneumonia and the judgment of the doctor. After a patient's temperature returns to normal, medication must be continued according to the doctor's instructions, otherwise the pneumonia may recur. Relapses can be far more serious than the first attack.

Besides antibiotics, patients are given supportive treatment: proper diet and oxygen to increase oxygen in the blood when needed. In some patients, medication to ease chest pain and to provide relief from violent cough may be necessary.

The vigorous young person may lead a normal life within a week of recovery from pneumonia. For the middle-aged, however, weeks may elapse before they regain their accustomed strength, vigor, and feeling of well- being. A person recovering from mycoplasma pneumonia may be weak for an extended period of time.

In general, a person should not be discouraged from returning to work or carrying out usual activities but must be warned to expect some difficulties. Adequate rest is important to maintain progress toward full recovery and to avoid relapse. Remember, don't rush recovery!



PREVENTING PNEUMONIA IS POSSIBLE

Because pneumonia is a common complication of influenza (flu), getting a flu shot every fall is good pneumonia prevention.

A vaccine is also available to help fight pneumococcal pneumonia, one type of bacterial pneumonia. Your doctor can help you decide if you, or a member of your family, needs the vaccine against pneumococcal pneumonia. It is usually given only to people at high risk of getting the disease and its life-threatening complications.

The greatest risk of pneumococcal pneumonia is usually among people who:
  • Have chronic illnesses such as lung disease, heart disease, kidney disorders, sickle cell anemia, or diabetes.
  • Are recovering from severe illness
  • Are in nursing homes or other chronic care facilities
  • Are age 65 or older
If you are at risk, ask your doctor for the vaccine.

The vaccine is generally given only once. Ask your doctor about any revaccination recommendations. The vaccine is not recommended for pregnant women or children under age two.

Since pneumonia often follows ordinary respiratory infections, the most important preventive measure is to be alert to any symptoms of respiratory trouble that linger more than a few days.Good health habits, proper diet and hygiene, rest, regular exercise, etc., increase resistance to all respiratory illnesses. They also help promote fast recovery when illness does occur.


IF YOU HAVE SYMPTOMS OF PNEUMONIA

Call your doctor immediately. Even with the many effective antibiotics, early diagnosis and treatment are important.

Follow your doctor's advice. In serious cases, your doctor may advise a hospital stay. Or recovery at home may be possible.

Continue to take the medicine your doctor prescribes until told you may stop. This will help prevent recurrence of pneumonia and relapse.

Remember, even though pneumonia can be treated, it is an extremely serious illness. Don't wait, get treatment early!

* I am Still Very Sick from my fifth time of Pneumonia...

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:"My Story"
Post by: Kristi Ann on February 19, 2005, 01:28:06 AM
February 18th, 2005 8:42PM PST

Okay, I banned someone again from my HomeWithGod Guestbook twice now. I Not a Fraud whatsoever! The reason why my Kristi Ann's Health Fund is in Place because I am Severely Disabled and cannot take care of my own needs monthly at all!! I have been without any sort of income since the year 2003.

I am Still Very Sick with Pneumonia and have been sleeping a lot. This is the Fifth Time I've had Pneumonia! The Reason Why I get it so easy is below;

I get Pneumonia Very easy due to my Birth Defect in my Chest area Rib Cage that was Rebuilt. At the same surgery, both my Lungs and Heart were operated on.

Individuals with Moderate to Severe Pectus Birth Defects may experience shortness of breath (due to the lung compression), exercise intolerance, chest pain (due to the ribcage not being able to expand), costochondrial pain (due to inflammation of the costochondrial joint), arrhythmias, increased asthmatic symptoms, susceptibility to inflammatory illness in the lungs and Pneumonia.

Please Read the Information I post about Pneumonia (http://ka7.proboards30.com/index.cgi?board=hurt&action=display&num=1108343225), this is a Very Serious!!



Okay, I also seen my Lawyer today about getting ready for my Social Security Disability Insurace Hearing March 9th. I need to get into Therapy right away, I am Severely Depressed still, even though I am on 150mg of zoloft a day now. So far the increased dose has not made a difference in my Depression. I have been Depressed a lot growning up and all through my life. I might have Bipolar Disorder, I need a doctor to check this out for me. I also had to Email the Hospital where I had my Severe Birth Defect Surgery in 1965 with Dr. Burer. I need the Records and Reports of my Entire surgery and hospital stay at Los Angeles Orthopaedic Hospital Foundation. So, I Emailed them When I got home from my lawyers office.

I will see my lawyer again before March 9th. My lawyer told me today I have a Really hard Judge in my case. Drats...  My Neuorologist doctotr says I am faking my pain and all my problems on his report GRRRRRR.  I did NOT choose to be born with a Severe Birth Defect, Color Blind, or Arthritis in my body. Nor did I choose to have two Ruptured disks in my back that hurt me  a lot. I did not choose depression. Or that I get Pneumoia very easy.

I am Very Stressed, Depressed, Disabled and Hurt. I NEED to move from where I am living soon. Please Lord Jesus HELP me I pray this in Jesus Name Amen!

I need to rest now I am super tired, I took I Vicodin pain pill and my Sleeping pill about 10 minutes ago. I cannot handle anymore Stress!!!!!!!


KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel
Admin/Owner
Kristi Ann's Haven


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on March 03, 2005, 04:20:01 PM
March 1st, 2005 7:28AM pst

I am super Stressed about my up and coming Social Security Disability Hearing March 9th, 2005 at 10:45AM pst in downtown Portland, Oregon! I am Not sleeping well, nor do I have been eating right, because I have no appetite. My Body cannot handle Stress like this!! I am Depressed for not having income at all since the year 2003!

I have several reasons why I need to move from here soon! My Room-mate is verbally abusive to me. She is Bi-sexual and Lesbian. In this one bedroom apartment, it is very small. Even though the telephones in the Living room and Kitchen are off, I hear the phone ring all the way up to 2AM in the morning sometimes, and this morning I was woke to hear the telephone ring at 4AM and 5:30AM. My room-mates girl -friend calling. I wish people would Stop calling here after 11PM and not until at least 6 or 7AM in the morning! I NEED my sleep! My room-mate goes to gay bars looking to have fun...

I take Prescription Sleeping pills and Pain pills so I can sleep through the night. I am NOT addicted to any of my Medications; they're needed for a purpose! I have arthritis in my body, plus I have had a sleep disorder for many years. It's Very hard to sleep with two ruptured disks in my back. My L4-L5 disk rupture is pressing on two sides of my spinal cord; the October 8th, 2004 MRI showed me why my lower back hurts so much. I have to support my neck just right when I sleep, because of my C5-C6 disk rupture in neck! If I sleep in a weird position at night, my neck will hurt me all down my right side if my body severely for almost a month.

I remember now more about my C5-C6 disk rupture in my neck. I first injured it at work in the late 1980s, then falling off my parent’s horse bare back in 1995, plus my 2001 car accident where I was T-Boned in the passenger side of my little Honda Civic.

I don't know when and how my L4-L5 disk rupture happened! I wish I knew, because this one hurts me a lot. In fact I had to take two Vicodin Pain pills yesterday to help ease the pain. What I DON'T like at all is my doctors playing this game with me saying I am faking my pain! They are NOT God, nor do they know everything! If a Orthopaedic Doctor did my 1965 surgery to rebuild my rib cage and remove it from my back bone, and at the same time my heart and lungs where operated on. An Orthopaedic Doctor found my C5-C6 disk rupture in my neck in the late 1980s, after my 1st MRI, he told me to get a lawyer, I asked him why, he didn't tell me why. He had me go too Physical Therapy and have Traction done on my neck twice a week. My current doctor a Neurologist prescribed me a home traction device so I can do traction on my neck at home. I still haven't gotten this, I don't know where I am supposed to go to order or find one!

I am super tired and need to go sleep if I can get some peace for a change! It's Very hard to sleep when you’re in the downstairs apartment of three stories. The staircase is connected to the apartment side where I am staying. People run up and down the staircase all night and early morning. The very top apartment, they're young couple are from another county and they are Very noisy when they are walking two stories above me. Plus they run up and down the staircase!!

I need HELP in PRAYER to get away from where I am living please. I badly need my SSDI so I can be on my own again!!!!! I cannot take anymore abuse!

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on March 05, 2005, 01:54:58 PM
March 5th, 2005 9:23PM pst

I went too my Therapist today, and she is really nice to! She diagnosed me with Chronic Depression (http://www.biopsychiatry.com/depression.html) and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) (http://www.ptsdinfo.org/). I will see an Psychiatrist Doctor at the Therapists office, to have Newer Depression Medication , and treat my PTSD disorder.

I have had major Traumatic things happen to me when I was born and growing up. So, I welcome any help I can get to help me with this!! I really think God lead me to the Right Place for help! My therapist will give information and a report to me and one to my SSDI Lawyer, I signed a release for this to be done. I am Super Stressed of my up and coming SSDI hearing March 9th, 2005!!

Love n' Hugs, \o/

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on March 13, 2005, 12:53:25 AM
March 9th, 2005 8:30PM pst

I have Been VERY stressed about my SSDI Hearing that was today March 9th, 2005 in Downtown Portland, Oregon! My Testimony was Great said my SSDI lawyer and the Judge in the case had a Vocational Expert. The Judge and the Vocational Expert both reviewed all the Reports from my Therapist and Doctors visits. My Therapist had a Report that I am Chronic Major Depressed. The Social Security Judge asked me about my Birth Defect and my two Ruptured Disks in my back. So, during the case in court, the Judge asked the Vocational Expert Hypothetical Questions like, Can she lift more than 10 pounds, the Vocational Expert said "No", the Judge asks a lot Hypothetical Questions, Most were can "She do this" the response was "No" only a couple or questions were "Yes". So after my hearing I asked my SSDI Lawyer what he thought about my SSDI case, he Told me I Won my SSDI case, But, we have to wait until we hear from the Judge in a week to two weeks. I wore my neck brace and used my walker to walk into the Court Room.

The palms of my hands were all wet during the hearing. I read my Bible Psalms Chapter 103 and Prayed a lot and put all my Faith in God before the Trial. I asked Jesus to soften the Judge and make him sympathetic Towards me. The Judge was Very nice and Respectful and I respected him by saying "yes sir". Before the Trial, I was waiting in the Hallway sitting on my walker. The Judge came out and said he was sorry they were running late, I said it's okay Sir! My trial was supposed to be at 10:45 AM PST, but, because of the backlog and long previous trials they ran longer than expected. My trial started at 11:30AM and I was in there for 50 to 55 minuets, all trails are supposed to be 45 minuets long.

I am had to take a Vicodin pain pill after I ate in the afternoon. The pain got to unbearable on my whole right side. I am sort of relieved my Social Security Disability Hearing in over with and in my Favor!! Praise Jesus for all the Prayers for my SSDI Hearing today!!  Thanks Everyone! I am Very Sleepy right now, the two nights I didn't sleep very well at all, even with my Prescription Sleeping medications.

Love Always & Forever! \o/

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on March 28, 2005, 02:44:20 PM
March 28th, 2005 10:25AM pst

I just called my Social Security Disability Lawyer fighting for my SSDI case. I spoke with Lisa there, she said they got some letter from Judge Jones, that he is requiring me to go too another exam of their choice.  Lisa asked me if I got a copy of this letter, I told her no I didn't, She said the letter isn't clear the Judge is requiring me for a mental or physical exam.  Lisa is making me a copy and sending me the letter, I should have gotten telling me I need to see yet another doctor again!

I am super tired, I took a Vicodin this morning because my C5-C6 herniated disk in my neck is hurting me a lot. I CANNOT move my neck it hurts so much! I am crying and have lost all hope and have no ambition anymore. Nor am I happy at all, I am super tired of the Social Security Administration Playing Games with me, they act like it's their money! I have been working since the age 12 or 13, until my body gave out on me in 2003. I CANNOT work anymore, I cannot handle the Stress or Pressure, this make my body hurt more.

I am so depressed :'( and don't know what to do anymore. I am at a loss for words and my Life!!! Before anyone judges me, you are Not me. Everyone has struggles and Everyone has different disabilities! I am Severely Disabled and Cannot take Life anymore!!


KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on April 17, 2005, 11:54:39 AM
April 11th, 2005 4:15PM pst

I see a female therapist every Friday, she said no wonder I don't have any motivation of ambition to do anything, because I take three heavy sedation medications that are prescribed by my doctor...  I take 200mg of Zoloft a day for my depression now, 100mg of Trazodone so I can sleep at night, and 5/500mg of Vicodin twice a day for my pain. This is why I am so tired a lot and don't do much.

I have to wear a Neck brace almost all day now for my C5-C6 disk rupture (herniation) in my neck, caused and hurt by work in the late 1980s, falling off my parent's horse bare-back in 1995, and a car accident in 2001.

I do not know when or how my L4-L5 disk rupture (herniation) in my lower back happened. I do know by the Neurologist Doctor telling me that this disk is worse than my necks. My L4-L5 disk rupture (herniation) is pressing on two sides of my spinal cord with Not enough room for all the nerves to go through that disk. So, if people call me a liar, they are totally wrong! I have the MRI pictures to prove my disk ruptures!!!

Please be kind to the Administrator/Owner of Kristi Ann's Haven, I cannot take anymore stress of any kind. Being born Severely Disabled is Not my Choice, God made me this way, and sometimes even I don't understand why either. Having arthritis throughout my re-built ribcage is Very painful and so is it in both legs. Plus my Sciatic Nerve is painful down the right side of my leg and body. My C5-C6 disk rupture sends pain down the middle of my back and down the right side of my neck and right shoulder and are areas. While my L4-L5 disk ruptures has a lot of pain in my lower back and throws me off balance.

I have had depression for along time now that I can remember. I called a Therapist when I was 13 years old because I need to talk to someone about some issues I was and still have. My mother had many Nervous Breakdowns when I was young, some when I was only 1 years old, and the others when I was 3 or 4 years old and another in 1971 when I was 11 years old. My mother had Electroshock Therapy, and this Hurt me Very Much! My mother hasn't had anymore nervous breakdowns since the late 1970s now. My daddy turned to alcohol and was an alcoholic in the mid 1970s while I was in High School. My daddy wasn't an abusive alcoholic; he was on the other end, too nice to me, compared to how he treated me when he was sober. My mother left my daddy and took me with her in the mid 1970s to make my daddy quit drinking. My daddy treated me okay when I was very young growing up, but later he was abusive to me not being nice or helping me to much.  I am supposed to write a Life Story or a Good-bye letter to my daddy as I Never got to say goodbye to him when he committed suicide February 26th, 2003 due to cancer and Lou Gehrig's disease. My daddy disowned me back in 1999 or 2000 for some reason. I blamed myself for him dying and still feel guilty for him getting sick.

The brakes on my 1995 Jeep Grand Cherokee are bad and when I took it to Firestone Tires to get an estimate they told me my Jeep need 4 new Disk Rotors because I have four wheel disk brakes, four new Calipers and all new Brake pads, plus drain and re-fill the hydraulic Brake fluid for my system. Firestone gave me a quote to fix my brakes at almost $1,100.00 dollars Yikes, I don't have that kind of money. I do have a check my mother sent me for $400.00 dollars. So, I am going to try to see if the same person who fixed my Water Pump, Radiator and Serpentine Belt, plus fixed the air-conditioning on my Jeep back in 2003. I left a message for them to call me tonight, they are fair and helped me a lot. This is because the owners wife of the Auto Repair Shop is Disabled like I am. I thank God for caring people like this, so hopefully I can get my brakes fixed at a better price.  

I had better get to the Goodbye letter I need to write to my daddy as my therapist wants me to do.

___________________________________



April 16th, 2005 6:30PM pst

I am scared again my room-mate drake a whole bottle of wine and was drunk and calling me names and cursing at me. I told her to get off my futon as I want to lay down and take a nap. She proceeded to call me a liar and cursed at me more. I said Katherine leave me alone now please, I do Not want to talk to you right now!

I cannot handle much more abuse towards me!! Monday at 8AM I am taking my Jeep in to have the brakes hopefully fixed. As my mother sent me $400.00 to have them fixed, hopefully and Praryerfully I will get them fixed!!

I Need Prayer for my Social Security Disability Insurance (SSDI) as I need to be on my own again Sooner than later!!!!

So Help  :-\ everyone!!! I KristiAnn AKA MsGuidedAngel am Severely Disabled and Scared!

No matter what happends, I Love you all!

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel
Admin/Owner
Kristi Ann's Haven


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Shammu on April 17, 2005, 12:21:07 PM
I am still praying for you KristiAnn.



Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on April 29, 2005, 11:06:55 AM
I am still praying for you KristiAnn.

thank you Bob! ;)

some updates;

April 23rd, 2005 8AM pst

I am so depressed right now. The Judge for my SSDI is very mean to make me to take all the tests in Thursday 21st, 2005!!

I was there for 6 hours and they made me take a I.Q. test, which was 3.5 hours long and almost 10,000 questions. Then a MMPI (Minnesota Multiphasic Personality Inventory) Yuck! Then more tests after that 500 question MMPI. This tired me out mentally for almost two days. I slept a lot and read a book to get my mind off all the tests.

I am going to take some legal action against the Psychologist Phd. doctor whom did my tests, I cannot get into details at all right now, because this is going to be against the Social Security Administration as well!

I have No ambition or drive to do anything much anymore. I don't even have gas for my Jeep, so I missed my Therapist Appointment Yesterday Friday April 22nd, 2005.

April 25th, 2005 12:30PM pst

I haven't went anywhere since April 21st, 2005 after the 6 hours of long mind tests that I had to go too for the Social Security Administration Judge made me go there! He is the hardest Judge to get SSDI from my Lawyer said.

I called the Oregon Board of Psychologist Examiners (http://www.obpe.state.or.us/) and spoke with a nice female in Investigator for telling that the Tongue PhD. told someone about my past and I did NOT give him permission to do so either!! The nice female Investigator is sending me a paperwork in my Snail-mail. She told me Dr. Tongue PhD. was Not supposed to give out any information about me to Stiene who gave me the I.Q. for 3.5 hours. Everything I talked to Tongue Phd. is supposed to be Confidential between him and I and NOT for Public Information!

I am super stressed over the whole SSDI red tape and there long waiting! My mother and I are both mad at the Judge that making to do this above. Six hours of mind testing tired me out, and This has NOTHING to do with my Physical Disabilities either. As I type the I am wearing a Neck and Back Brace. I took another Vicodin Pain pill just now, because I hurt.

I am hurt Emoitionally and Physically now by the SSA !!

I cannot stand no more Tests or Doctors either from the SSA! I am Severely Disabled and cannot do much anymore. I cannot go bowling anymore, I cannot go Roller Skating or Ice Skating anymore, I cannot even sit long either... I am Crying  that I am 45 years old and cannot do as much as older people anymore..


KristiAnn  :'( :'(
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Shammu on April 29, 2005, 10:25:10 PM
Still praying for you Kristi Ann

Bob


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on May 08, 2005, 01:38:31 PM
Still praying for you Kristi Ann

Bob

Thanks Bob! ;D

some updates on me below;

May 4th 2005 8PM

I am so tired and hungry. I only ate this morning and haven't eating again as of yet. I had a hot chocolate at 3PM. This is around the time Katherine came back and wanted to talk and I was scared again, just trying to drink my hot chocolate when she told me to call my therapist Courtney, she proceeded to tell Courtney how this whole apartment is her space and I have none. I beg to differ, I have a futon in the living room I sleep on and this is my private space when I want to sleep, she said it's in her space thus it ism hers. My Computer is my Space and she has No Right to unplug it when I am typing, that is rude.

When I called the police on the Cordless phone she disconnected it. So, I called 911 from My telephone land line, and she unplugged my receiver as I was talking to the 911 operator. I had to call 911 two times as the first time a lady gave me a non emergency Gresham Police number. I called 911 back and they dispatched a patrol car with two officers, I talked with them briefly and they never came back and talked to me to see if I was okay.

She keeps telling me I am try to control her life, I am not I just want to live and have my space and I am Severely Disabled and she don't respect that in me. Because I was born with a birth defect.  I am scared because she is threatening me with an Eviction Notice when We talk with my Therapist Courtney this Friday at noon.

I cannot handle anymore abuse emotionally or verbally. I need Help God for my SSDI to come soon Please. I need to be on my own and so does Snowy my Cat. We need protection from Anger!!

Help Lord Jesus, even my doctor could see this in Katherine that she is verablly abusive to me. My Doctor Sara is nice to me in Person. This is the way I am going to keep it!!

I need my SSDI so I can Move Help!!!


KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel

More.....


May 7th, 2005 9AM pst

No one should have to live in fear of their life or home. My meeting with my room-mate and I at LifeWorks with my therapist Courtney. My therapist acted as the Moderator between my room-mate Katherine and I.

Courtney only let one of talk at a time. This did not work out though, as Katherine did not want to take turns and interrupt when we all tried to talk in turns. Katherine started getting angry pointing her finger at my Therapist Courtney saying "excuse me" that is not true. Katherine kept saying she is 61 years old and that she knows a lot more than Courtney and I. Katherine kept saying I was not mature at 45 years old.

Courtney asked Katherine to leave the room after she realized this won't work at all. Courtney and I talked after Katherine left. I let my Therapist Courtney read my Private Diary if what happened May 4th, 2005. Katherine kept saying I am a liar in what I wrote to Courtney earlier.

On the way home I was driving my Jeep Grand Cherokee eastbound on Hwy 84 back to Gresham, Oregon where Katherine and I live. I don't know why I did it, but, I told Katherine I let my Therapist Courtney read my Private Diary of what happened May 4th, 2005. Courtney talked me that day on May 4th, 2005 and told me to write everything down, plus what I could do to improve the room-mate status between Katherine and I. Anyway, after I let Katherine know I let Courtney read my Private Diary, Katherine blew up at me calling me God's Name in Vain over and over, cursing at me calling me a Liar. I pulled over to the side of the freeway, and asked Katherine to get out of my Jeep I am Not going to take this abuse anymore. Katherine refused to get out, so at 122nd Ave. I got off hwy 84, because I could not take Katherine's anger at me anymore. She kept yelling at me and would not clam down. As I was traveling down 122nd, Ave. I turned left on Glisen and Katherine said oh sure you're going to take me to the Police station on the corner. I didn't know there was a Police Station there until she pointed its right there. So, after ht left turn signal turned green, I turned into the Police Stating Parking lot, I then asked Katherine to get out of my Jeep there, she wouldn't. She kept saying "You have to Take me Home Now!" "I said I don't have to take you anywhere if I don't want to!" Katherine got angrier at me, and yelled at me more, so I left the Police Station Parking lot disabled space I was parked in. As Katherine kept cursing at me, I decided to ignore her from now on. I drove the rest of the way to the apartments quite not saying anything until I pulled into the parking lot. I backed up in a parking space so Katherine could unload the shingles and plant that someone gave her at Alexis's apartment complex. Katherine kicked my passenger side door open with her foot inside my Jeep Grand Cherokee, I said Please don't kick my Jeep! Katherine got madder and asked me can she make two trips to unload my Jeep, I said no that you can unload all the shingles on the sidewalk. I then went and got my mail at my Post Office Box in Gresham. I opened the two letters from Multmomah County I-Tax, they where for the 2003 taxes they said I owed $94.86 dollars. One letter was dated May 1st, 2005 and it was a bill for the $94.86 I owe still due by June 1st, 2005. The other letter was saying I was approved for Hardship Status and don't owe anything and they will Not try to collect from me or report me.

No one should live in Fear!!! Katherine said on the way home. Disconnect the DSL from my computer and move my futon outside as she was getting her couch out of her garage. She threatened me again by kicking me out. This morning Katherine apologized to me and said I still want to be friends with you. I said you're killing our friendship. She left where I was sitting and cried. I stated to listen to Enya music on my computer, then onto Christian Music. The Christian music relaxed me and made me smile and cry!

Katherine left for the day, to go too the apartments she has been managing for Alexia, near Beaverton Oregon. Katherine can No Longer Drive My Jeep Grand Cherokee, So, she took the bus over there this morning. I am alone now, I hide my diaries as Katherine was going to use her Paralegal education and sepenia them from me and destroy them. I said I think Not, these are my Private Diaries and they're not for Public to read them unless I want them to. I hide them all now better than before so no one but God and I know where they are located from now on!!

I still haven't heard from the Social Security Administration (SSA) Judge Ralph Jones for me SSDI claim I have. So, I am Very Stressed and Depressed over the matter.

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel



Title: Re:My Story
Post by: AJ on May 08, 2005, 10:11:37 PM
Will be praying for you MsGuidedAngel




Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Shammu on May 09, 2005, 01:28:45 AM
Praying for you sister.

Bob

Acts 4:30 By stretching forth thine hand to heal; and that signs and wonders may be done by the name of thy holy child Jesus.


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on May 24, 2005, 06:19:44 PM
May 24th, 2005 10:40am pst  :(

 :'( :'( :'(

Last night after I watched my show Medium on NBC. At 11pm I went to bed. I heard the telephone ring and I heard Katherine talking to Barbara, and saying something about Alexia's paperwork she had, I opened the door and told Katherine while she was on the telephone with Barbara. In the last week, Alexia and Katherine and I worked to tell Alexia that I would take the paperwork to give Alexia paperwork and meeting her away from this apartment. I guess Katherine Changed her mind about the paperwork and did NOT tell Alexia or I about that, so Alexia and I worked it out I would give her that I would give her the paperwork that belongs to Alexia. Sunday while Katherine was at Church in downtown Portland, I found my black suitcase in Katherine's closet; I was looking for something and found Alexia's paperwork by mistake. It was weird Alexia had called me later that day. I met her in Gresham, Oregon and I gave her the paperwork that belongs to Alexia.

After I had told Katherine, that Alexia already has her paperwork, Katherine got VERY angry and started yelling at me and calling me many names by cursing at me, all the while on the telephone to Barbara. Katherine got my suitcase out and threw it at me as I was on my way to the bathroom to go potty. The black suitcase hit me on my left shin and right lower leg when Katherine threw it at me. I yelled ouch and Barbara heard me say this and heard Katherine cursing at me and threatening me. I did not get angry at all, I kept clam and did not curse at all. Barbara kept calling Katherine, and tired to clam her down. Katherine's bedroom door was closed and I was in bed again after Katherine threw the suitcase at me. Katherine threw her cordless telephone while she was on the phone with Barbara, and the telephone broke apart when it hit the door. I didn't know Barbara called 911 for me in Vancouver, Washington because of Katherine's anger towards me, plus Barbara and Alexia. Alexia had told me Barbara called 911 on the phone, because I seen my cordless phone lighting up, so the phone didn't ring, and Katherine had no idea that I was talking to Alexia while I was laying down in my bed.  We got off the telephone, when I fell asleep, and Katherine came out of her bedroom and leaned down and yelled and cursed at me at the top of her lungs, and awoke me.

The Gresham Police did come around 12 midnight. They knocked on the door, and Katherine looked out the mini-blinds as I was opening the front door, Katherine pushed me aside and slammed the door shut and as it was shutting, my right big toe got scratched from the bottom of the door. I yelled and screamed owe really loud and the Police where still trying to get into the apartment. I went to the back door and opened it and I told the officers this way and they ran and came in and pointed a tazer at Katherine and told her to get unto the floor face down. Katherine resisted and fought with the police all at this time, I was curled up into a ball on my futon when this was happing, I had my night gown over my knees and I was Praying out to God to please help me and take Katherine's anger away. One officer stayed with the handcuffed Katherine and the other had me go onto the back patio and sit down outside. I only had my nightgown on and I was very cold. One of the officers gave me one of my white blankets that were on my bed to keep warm, as it was 1am now and it was Very cold outside. I told the officers what had happened about my black suitcase being thrown at me before they were there, they heard me scream with Katherine slammed the front door. I heard Katherine saying I was lying to the police about everything that happened. The officers kept the back door open a tad to make sure I was okay outside. Katherine only had panties on the entire time the officers where here, she was topless and almost bottomless.  I heard Katherine's anger at me while I was outside and while she was taking to the police officers. The Katherine started crying, and the police officers gave her the red dress she'd been wearing that day so Katherine could get modest, and feel safe. The officers removed the handcuffs to Katherine could put this on, and re-handcuffed her afterwards. I was still outside all during this, I could hear everything!

On of the officers asked me if I needed medical treatment, I had said no, not at this time. They asked me if Katherine and I were domestic partners, I told them no we are not. Only that we are considered significant others through the VA and HAP (Housing Authority of Portland). This is so I can legally stay here until I get my SSDI (Social Security Disability Insurance) from the SSA (Social Security Administration). Then I could move out on my own someday hopefully soon.

The officers came back and knocked on the door while I was talking to Alexia on the phone, Alexia had called me again. Alexia is begging me to get into a shelter NOW and do Not wait anymore. I worry because some of my home things are in Katherine's garage, and I have no place to put them. I need to sell some expensive things in the mini storage a friend of mine has been paying for me since the year 2003. This is so I can get some money and have someone help me move my things from Katherine's garage into my storage unit. The Police officers took pictures of the damaged door when Katherine slammed it shut and the police pushed back.

I haven't eaten yet and I need to get busy and call a Shelter SOON today and get out of here! The Police took Katherine away handcuffed and they were taking her to the hospital. The officers told me I need to get out of this apartment and stay with friends or get into a shelter As Soon As Possible and don't wait anymore.

So, I am going to eat and get busy. I will not be able to be online soon and will pack my computer away in the box under my desk. I will not be able to take care of Kristi Ann's Haven at all soon, as I won't have internet access anymore. So, I need someone to take over for me as Administrator for a long time Please! I NEED help and I need it Now, I cannot procrastinate anymore on anything. I am super Depressed, Stressed and Distressed over everything that Katherine has been doing to me and the SSA also. So far the SSA hasn't made a positive decision for my SSDI claim. My hearing was March 9th, 2005 and Judge Ralph Jones hasn't made his decision in my claim still as of yet! I do not know why it's taking the Judge so long, as my lawyer still thinks we won my case, but that it's in the Judges hands still. I am Still have had no letter in the mail as of yet!

I am going to eat now, it's almost 11:30am and I haven't eaten since yesterday..

So, Please Moderators I need and Experienced Moderator whom I will give them a promotion to Administrator at Kristi Ann's Have and take care of something's while I am offline!! I am desperate now for someone to help me at Kristi Ann's Haven Please!!

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: nChrist on May 24, 2005, 09:45:17 PM
KristiAnn,

Sister, I will definitely be praying for you.

I thought that you already had several moderators for your forum. Did something happen to them? I'm sorry that I can't help you. I'm already to or beyond the limit of what my health will allow for volunteer work. I'm afraid that the same might be true for the other moderators on Christians Unite.

Sister, you can count on the prayers of many sweet Christians here.

Love In Christ,
Tom

Philippians 4:7  And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on May 30, 2005, 06:32:30 PM
KristiAnn,

Sister, I will definitely be praying for you.

I thought that you already had several moderators for your forum. Did something happen to them? I'm sorry that I can't help you. I'm already to or beyond the limit of what my health will allow for volunteer work. I'm afraid that the same might be true for the other moderators on Christians Unite.

Sister, you can count on the prayers of many sweet Christians here.

Love In Christ,
Tom

Philippians 4:7  And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Thanks Tom! :)

I am still scared where I live here.. here is some updates..

May 25th, 2005 7:30pm pst

This morning Katherine called me from the Psych Ward 5C of the VA Hospital in downtown Portland, Oregon. She wanted me to bring her some clothes and underware, her makeup and radio. I said I might be able to do this later maybe in the Afternoon. Well, Christina called me from the VA and asked me if I would meet with them tomorrow at 11am. I said, do I really have to, she said no you don't if you're uncomfortable. Christina reassured me the Psych Ward will have plenty of protection for me, Christina was unaware that I am Severely Disabled, because Katherine didn't tell them. Christina was also unaware of Katherine Throwing a suit case at me and Kicking to, plus that when the police came, Katherine slammed the Front door as I was opening it and the door caught my right toe. Christina did Not know any of this happened at all. Christina did tell me the reason why Katherine is in the Psych Ward, because she had an altercation with the Gresham Police Officers on the way to Mount Hood Medidal Center. Since Katherine weights almost 300lbs, I am sure it took two officers to handle her. Katherine got a disloacted shoulder because of what she did. Plus Christina said Katherine is in the Psych Ward because of her Anger!!

Katherine called me about 7 times today and harassed me on the telephone, asking me what I have been doing all day and more than likely in front of my computer all day. I said, "that is really none of your Buisness what I did today!" I cleaned the kitchen all up, it was very dirty because of Katherine. I washed all the dishes, and cleaned all the counters too. I was going to vaccume the carpets, but, it's too hot to do this, and I am hurting big time and I took a Vicodin pain pill. I called the Psych Ward and told them to take Katherine's telephone Privileges because she has been harassing me on the telephone and scaring me!

Alexa and Barbara are Kathernie's friends and are NOT supporting Katherine at all. They are supporting me, and are standing behind me 100%. I decided to Press Charges against Katherine for assault, because of the Suitcase being thrown at me and slamming the front door on my right toe when the police were here!!! I CANNOT take anymore Verbal, Emotional, or Physical from Katherine ANYMORE!!!! I WILL NOT take abuse anymore from this sick person!!

I need to finish writing in my Private Diary, because Christina whom called me today, said that Katherine cannot take my private diary's and destoy them either! She said I am safe at the VA tomorrow and Katherine cannot harm me in anyway. Nor can Katherine get ahold of my diary's either. I have documented almost all the Abuse in my diary's from the year 2003 to Present!

I have to MOVE out of where I am living SOON!!!! Hopefully God is helping me with housing soon. I have an offer and it's far away from Gresham, Oregon. So, now all I have to do is wait on God to help me get this stuido apartment soon!!!

I will NOT be online much longer as I am Moving soon! I will pack my Computer away in the boxes here. I might not be online for a long time! I might have to go too the Library to check my Emails and Kristi Ann's Haven out,that is if God Providing me to do so!!

I need to eat, I haven't eaten since this morning. I am going to bed Very early and getting up early tomorow!! I am Pressing Charges against Katherine in the moring!

God Bless all the Members of Kristi Ann's Haven. Remember, I will Love you all no matter what happends!!

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel

May 27th, 2005 6:40pm pst

I went too the Gresham, Oregon Police Station before I went up to the VA. The Gresham Police says this case is with the District Attorney (DA) now, so, I had to press charges there now. The Gresham Police gave me a telephone number to call and said I had to do this in downtown Portland, Oregon. I left the Gresham, Police Department around 8:30am on May 26th, 2005. I drove to Portland, and it took me an hour with traffic to get to the Downtown DA's office. I didn't have to wait in the long lines in the Front of the Court House. I went through a special entrance for Disabled people. I went up too the 6th floor of the Court House, and spoke with a nice female secretary, she looked to see if my case had been moved to the Portland Office yet, it wasn't there like the Gresham, Police told me. So the very nice secretary dialed a telephone number for me and I spoke with Sara there in Gresham DA's office and she brought up the report and case. She reassured me this is very Confidential and that I need not say anything to anyone! I am very hush, hush about some things right now. I took pictures of my left leg with all the bruises on in with my digital camera I own. Sara at the DA's office said well and keeps them hidden, at which I will do! I took pictures of the badly damaged front door Katherine and the Police damaged when Katherine wouldn't let them into the Apartment. I should hear from Sara and their office by next Friday or earlier. They told me they'll work on the case and get everything ready at the DA's office. Then they told me Katherine will get arrested! So, the DA's office will be my attorney, and Katherine will have to get her own! I am not trying to kick Katherine out of her apartment at all!! I called the Police to protect myself when Katherine was mad at me and wouldn't leave me alone on May 4th, 2005! Katherine unplugged my land line phone when I was taking to the 911 operator. She pushed me out of the way when I was talking to the 911 operator. Used my body and pushed her away from my desk, and re-plugged in the receiver into my telephone that I own on my desk! Katherine is telling everyone, that I pushed her against the wall, at which I DID NOT do!

I went up to the VA and took all Katherine's medications. I gave them to the front Nurses desk in the Locked Psych Ward in the VA hospital. This is where Katherine was put because of a lot of issues with anger after the police took her handcuffed away from the Apartment May 24th, 2005 around 1:30am I believe! She fought with the Gresham, Police, and when they dropped Katherine off at the Mount Hood Medical Center. Katherine fought again, this time with two Hospital Security Officers. Her shoulder got a major dislocation because I know her Anger caused it!

Katherine take anger management know, the Doctors at VA required it this time! Katherine was angry in the meeting too. We all met in a small private meeting room. I had two Nurses on each side of me, and around Katherine were a male Psychiatrist doctor and a female nurse on the other side.

Katherine came home with me in my Jeep on Wednesday the 26th of May when the meeting was over. Her mood was sort of mellow on the way back here. I do not understand why the VA let her go when she wanted to! Anyway, all that changed when we got home. Katherine was back to being her old self again and tried to record conversations between us and I would Not talk while she was recording me. She kept pestering me to talk and I said I choose Not to Answer those questions! I was laying down on my futon trying to sleep, because I had been up since 4am that morning of the VA meeting. I finally got tired of her questions and anger, so, I turned the mini tape recorder off. She went to my desk and called 911 on me for doing this. The Gresham Police came and said I did nothing wrong! Katherine still claims I went into her closet and was stealing from her when I took the papers that belonged to Alexa! I did not steal anything from Katherine That was and still is my Black suit case I own!

I am awaiting and Email from Sarah soon I hope and Pray. I NEED to get out of here, and she has a studio apartment for me on the coast of Oregon. I re-emailed her back and I want to move there as soon as possible!! Where this is a 3 hours west from where Katherine lives. I am not telling her anything about this either!

ASAP – Always Say A Prayer for me Please  I need to get out of the Verbal, Emotional and now Physical abuse that have been happening to me since the year 2003!

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel :'(


Title: My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on June 07, 2005, 10:51:33 PM
here's some updates;  shhhhhhhhh


June 7th, 2005

I am Moving to Tillamook soon YaY! ;)

I am hopeful today, but really tired though a lot lately!

The Reason why I am Hopeful is Sarah called me today and they want me to come out to Tilliamook, Oregon on the Coast of Northern Oregon YaY!



The Granny Cottage is almost 500 square feet and it is sort of my dream home until I get my SSDI someday hopefully!!!

Love n' Hugs, YSIC \o/

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel


Title: My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on August 20, 2005, 11:32:35 PM
August 9th, 2005

My Second SSDI Hearing was Today at 10:45am in Downtown Portland, Oregon. This time there was a different Court Reporter and Vocational Expert for the Judge.

The Judge asked Assumption Questions to the Vocational Expert, six total. The Judge asked the Assumption Question, and it went like this below;

Can She Do the Work She Used to do in the Past mentally, Yes the Vocational Expert said, then the Next Question Can She Physically do the work, the Vocational Expert said No she cannot!

Then Questions like Can She do this for the other 5 questions, the the Vocational Expert said "No She Cannot!" to all five questions!

This time the Judge says I should hear from him in two weeks this time. I asked the Judge is there going to be another hearing, he said no..

My Lawyer Still thinks we Won my SSDI case as I cannot work anymore due to my severe disabilities I have. But, again we must wait upon the Judge to send me the letter in the mail soon.

I took pictures of my Birth Defect called "Pectus Excavatum" of my Chest. There are Five Scars from the Surgery, the main scar is more than one foot long. Then there are  one small one inch long scars below my left breast, and two more the same one inch long and half an inch wide in the middle of my chest below both my breasts. The last scar is one inch round in diameter and it's in the side of my right breast. My Chest looks like a Road Map for a Surgeons Scalpel!!!

I have Bursitis (http://www.mayoclinic.com/invoke.cfm?id=DS00032) in my right upper thigh and hips now, as I seen my doctor yesterday, and she told me that is what I have. It feels like someone kicked me really hard and it hurts a lot.

I am hopeful, I can Get my SSDI someday soon so I can move out on my own!!!!!!!

Please Pray that I get my SSDI  Because it's been more than two years I have been waiting for it now!


KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel





Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Shammu on August 21, 2005, 12:39:22 AM
I am still praying for you Kristi Ann.


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: nChrist on August 21, 2005, 01:00:37 AM
Hello KristiAnn,

Things are finally sounding good and possibly nearing an end in you getting your SSDI. I will be praying for just that. Waiting two more weeks will be nothing compared to what you've already spent in fighting all of the red tape.

In the meantime - KEEP LOOKING UP!

Love In Christ,
Tom

Philippians 4:7 NASB  And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.


Title: My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on August 26, 2005, 02:09:05 PM
Thanks so much Tom and Bob!!!  ;D

Great News Below!!!

August 26th, 2005

I went and got my mail from my Post Office Box last night, it had been a week since I got my mail...

There was an important letter from the Social Security Administration ( SSA ) for me. I open it at desk in the Post Office and read it.. I WIN for my SSDI, the letter said ~> This Decision is Fully Favorable To You!

So, now the Judge is Nice to me and sign the The Important Letter for me and since to August 22nd, 2005. But, I have to wait for another letter from Another Office from SSA before I get anything as of yet, and this Has to be before 60 days, I I don't hear anything it says, I am to contact my local office..

I Won my SSDI finally after more than two years waiting for it.  ;D

Thanks Everyone for the Prayers, I really needed them!!  

I will let you all know my plans as I know more about where God wants me to live soon!

Love Always, YSIC \o/

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel








Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Shammu on August 26, 2005, 02:26:38 PM
Thanks so much Tom and Bob!!!  ;D

Great News Below!!!

I Won my SSDI finally after more than two years waiting for it.  ;D

Thanks Everyone for the Prayers, I really needed them!!  

I will let you all know my plans as I know more about where God wants me to live soon!

Love Always, YSIC \o/

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel
;D


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: nChrist on August 26, 2005, 02:53:21 PM
Yeah!!

Finally!!


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Willowbirch on September 05, 2005, 07:42:31 PM
Wow! I did not see this thread before today - what a lot to read through!

I hope, KristiAnn, that you are in a safe place and I am glad you were able to get your SSDI!


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: RachelRH on September 05, 2005, 11:42:11 PM
KristiAnn--It touches my heart that you have been able to share so much of your life with us.

I am so glad that you have won your SSDI. Praise God!

Keep your light shining. You are such a blessing...

Rachel


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: airIam2worship on September 16, 2005, 01:44:23 PM
Kristiann. You are such a blessing. Your story is so moving, and yet so real, you truely are a great warrior. GOD has no losers in HIS army and you are a champion. I admire your courage, your outlook and most of all your faith. Thank GOD for people like you. I looked at your webpage, your mom and dad and you are just beautiful. I agree with you in all you have written, GOD is so faithful. I will always have you in my prayers, and your mom too. It is so wonderful to know that you have a heavenly Father that supplies all your needs. I am proud to have you as a sister in Christ.


Title: My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on October 11, 2005, 06:05:51 PM
thanks everyone.. I haven't got anything as of yet though and here is some updates;

October 4th, 2005

Why did I make This Forum (http://ka7.proboards30.com/index.cgi?board=wadv), Because I suffer from this from my room-mate! Last night was bad for me. Katherine, lost it again and took her anger out on me Verbally and Physically. 911 was called twice, and Stupid Police Officers said there is Nothing they can do, and if they get called out here again, they would arrest me and Katherine, HUH, I didn't start anything at all! I asked Katherine to leave me alone more than once and she wouldn't. My right hand fingers were bent back-wards when I was reaching for the telephone receiver.

I was called Many Curse words last night, I was Put Down, I was Threatened... I cannot take much more of this anymore! I called my Lawyers Office today and they said my BIG SSDI and SSI Checks should be deposited Very Soon into my Account.

So, I ask for Prayer  ( Always Say A Prayer ) ASAP, that I get the Home I want to buy soon! I NEED to be on my Own, and be away from all the Abuse!!!!

This Violence Started, by name calling right after Christmas 2003 with Katherine, while we were in California with my mother. Katherine Cursed at me and Called me names right in front of my mother...

I have been Writing in my Diary's since the year 2003 about this Anger and Violence with Katherine. I wrote January 20th, 2004 ~> "I'm Really Tired of Katherine's anger all the time!"

Katherine has lost her temper way too many times with me, taking out her anger on me is NOT right!!!!!! It has been getting worse.. It was May this year 2005 when Katherine threw a suit case at me and kicked at me, and she admits doing this when she lost her temper again. Then on October 3rd, 2005 All I was doing was listening to music on my iTunes and Katherine Yelled at me Cursing at me and turned my computer off without my approval. So, I was writing this down when Katherine grabbed the paper pad I was writing this all down on, Again Katherine entered My Private Space and Violated it and my Privacy! I tried to get my paper pad back and Katherine pushed me and broke my lamp shade doing this. She called 911 on me saying and called me a liar, cursed at me, put me down, saying I am Selfish, Self Centered, and other not so nice words. Katherine used My Telephone that I own on my desk to do all this. I let the Police come, and they wouldn't do anything. It was at this time Katherine was drinking Beer and NOT being Nice at all!!!

Katherine is a mean person... When I tried to call 911 to protect myself, she grabbed the receiver from me and bent my right hand fingers backwards. So, I unplugged my corded telephone receiver and used the cordless phone on my desk to call 911. I was shaking and Scared of Katherine's physical abuse and all the police told Katherine to do is Leave me alone, Sheez, I did that all night without any luck. The police could see I was shaking and scared, and all they said, if they get called back here again, they would Arrest Katherine and also myself. I DIDN'T START anything, I was staying away from Katherine and She WOULDN'T LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM NOT TAKING THIS FROM KATHERINE ANYMORE FROM NOW ON OUT!!!!!!!!!! NO ONE SHOULD LIVE IN FEAR LIKE I AM!!!! I WAS THREATED MORE THAN ONCE BY KATHERINE!!!!!!

PLEASE PRAY I GET THE PLACE I WANT TO LIVE IN!! MY MOTHER DON'T LIKE KATHERINE AT ALL ALSO!!!!!!!!!!!

October 8th, 2005

I am on the Lease here at Katherine's apartment Legally, and her Gay Pot Smoking, Beer Drinking Alcoholic girlfriend came up to me and upset me. The bathroom is located through Katherine's bedroom, and the gay foul mouthed girlfriend said "Knock before you come into the bedroom" I said NO, when I have to go potty, I go, I am NOT waiting for anyone's permission to do so either!!

Katherine is Not here right now, and I Do Not appreciate her girlfriend coming up to me telling me this in the apartment where I am Legally on the Lease! I cannot stand people coming up to me telling me what I should do before I have to go to the bathroom to go Potty ever! I ALSO Don't Appreciate Katherine's girlfriend telling me she works fives days a week for my Social Security Disability Insurance (SSDI) money I am getting!! It's No One's Business Telling me that they are paying for my Social Security!!!!

PLEASE, I NEED PRAYER TO GET OUT OF HERE SOON!!!

I have to walk with Forearm Crutches now! (http://www.walkeasy.com/shop/product_details.asp?ProductCode=471)

I am tired a lot, partially due to Katherine and her girlfriend talking all night and the girlfriend smoking in Katherine's bedroom either!! My Lungs are Very Weak because of Pneumonia six times and my Birth Defect! (http://www.shrinershq.org/whatsnewarch/archives01/chest8-01.html)

October 10th, 2005

I should not be doing this, but, I packed light CDs and all my DVDs today.  I am hurting big time from the little packing I did, but, I had to do something, because I am Moving Soon!! I just cannot sit around all day and watch TV or play with my computer.. I need to face the Fact that I am Moving sooner than I think I am, so, its better not to just sit here and do Nothing! I am in the process of making some BIG changes in my life soon! Please Pray I am okay with everything and God Protects me from the Time Bomb my Room-mate is, and I Move too My Own Home Soon! I want Nothing to do with with Katherine's Life Style at all anymore! I am Also Making Changes at Kristi Ann's Haven because of some issues that came up, please be patient while I am in the process! Life Changes and It Changes for KristiAnn and her Website Kristi Ann's Haven!

There was hard knock on the Door and I was the only one home. It was a Gresham Police Officer Investigator, and he is investigating my room-mate!! I didn't know this was coming either! Its about her past and a lot of neighbors have complained to the Police about this and to the District Attorney also! I want Nothing to do with this at all!!

Please Keep me in PRAYER Because I have to face the fact God is making changes in my life for the Better! Thank You Everyone for the Nice Comments about the Pictures I posted above of the house I want to buy, it hasn't sold yet, Thank God! So, Hopefully and Prayerfully This will Work out for me sooner than Later!!

I shouldn't told Katherine, but, she pry'ed out of me then Blew up at me taking God's Name in vain at me and cursing at me. I HAD NOTHING to do with the Investigation at ALL!! So, thus I sit here Scared again! One Punch to my Chest would Kill me, because my Rebuilt Rib Cage would collapse and puncher my lungs and heart!!
:'(    :(    :'(



Love Always, YSIC \o/

No Matter What Happends


KristiAnn
lilPrincess
MsGuidedAngel






Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Soldier4Christ on October 11, 2005, 06:31:48 PM
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Title: Re:My Story
Post by: cris on October 11, 2005, 07:01:36 PM

KristiAnn,

As of June 7th you were going to Tillamook to be with Sarah et al.  I really thought you were there already, all safe and sound.  Praise God that you got your SSDI.  Girl, you're on your way to a new life.  God knows that! ;)  He's never late.....He's never early.........He's always on time.

Grace and peace,
cris





Title: Re:My Story
Post by: nChrist on October 12, 2005, 03:15:38 AM
Hello KristiAnn,

We haven't heard from you in awhile, but many of us have never stopped praying for you, including me. It appears that you are nearing the end of problems associated with sharing an apartment, but I thought that you already addressed that. I really wish that you had because your situation is not good. A regular income will give you other options.

In the meantime - we are still praying for you.

Love In Christ,
Tom

Psalms 16:8 NASB  I have set the LORD continually before me; Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.


Title: My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on October 12, 2005, 01:08:04 PM
Thanks so much Tom and Cris!!! ;D Praise Jesus Christ that the End of me Living in this apartment is almost over soon!


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I editied it....  ;)

Thanks for your Non Caring Post with me, Walk a Mile in MY SHOES!


YSIC ,

KristiAnn
lilPrincess
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Soldier4Christ on October 12, 2005, 03:04:17 PM
Thanks so much Tom and Cris!!! ;D Praise Jesus Christ that the End of me Living in this apartment is almost over soon!


MsGuidedAngel,

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I editied it....  ;)

Thanks for your Non Caring Post with me, Walk a Mile in MY SHOES!


YSIC ,

KristiAnn
lilPrincess
MsGuidedAngel

Only if you walk a mile in mine.  ;) ;D  Sister we all have problems and I definitely am praying for you in yours.



Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Shammu on October 15, 2005, 08:06:45 PM
KristiAnn, i though you had left, already. I will be praying for you, to arrive safely in Tillamook.

Resting in the hands, of Jesus.
Bob

1 Samuel 17:22 David left his packages in the care of the baggage keeper and ran into the ranks and came and greeted his brothers.


Title: My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on December 06, 2005, 05:50:55 PM
KristiAnn, i though you had left, already. I will be praying for you, to arrive safely in Tillamook.

Resting in the hands, of Jesus.
Bob

1 Samuel 17:22 David left his packages in the care of the baggage keeper and ran into the ranks and came and greeted his brothers.

Well, I am Not moving too Tillamook, Oregon after all anymore... Thanks for the Prayers DW! below is why no one has heard from me lately;

December 2nd, 2005

Why am I Severely Disabled and Depressed, here are the reasons ~> I was born with a Severe Birth Defect Called "Pectus Excavatum" (http://www.ctds.info/pectus_excavatum.html). Individuals Pectus Excavatum with moderate to Severe pectus defects may experience shortness of breath (due to the lung compression), exercise intolerance, chest pain (due to the ribcage not being able to expand), costochondrial pain (due to inflammation of the costochondrial joint), arrhythmias, increased asthmatic symptoms, susceptibility to inflammatory illness in the Lungs and Pneumonia. I get Migraine Headaches Everyday due to my C5-C6 Disk Rupture in my Neck!! I also have a Very hard time walking due to my L4-L5 Disk Rupture in my lower back, and it's pressing on two sides of my spinal cord, with Not enough room for the nerves to go through my L4-L5 Disk!! This is Way I take so much Pain Medications Everyday!!

I haven't been anywhere or outside in over a month now. My 1995 Jeep Grand Cherokee is STILL Broken and I DON'T have all the Money to fix it before Christmas.. My Checking Account is back in the Green again, and a Good Friend is helping me also little.. I have to take three Sedation Medicate Everyday because I am Severely Disabled, and they make me super tired all the time. I wish my Jeep can be fixed before Christmas, but no one else is helping me at all.. I Cannot Think good at all, Depressed is NOT a CHOICE, it runs in my Family. My Jury Duty Deferral now too May 22nd, 2006, the Court forgive me!  I hope and ASAP PRAY (Always Say A Prayer) I GET my MONEY from Social Security Administration soon. I am Scared of my neighbors they are evil and are down right mean. I have never done anything to them at all, they Play music really loud that I can hear through the wall, most of them are teenagers, and some older mean people here are supplying there Beer and Drugs there, and Management won't do anything too them, even I have Complaint with Paperwork, and Management Still will Not do anything to them...

My Broken Teeth are hurting me a lot lately, and I Still Cannot get them fixed, having two ruptured disk in my back and the arthritis all throughout my body makes me so tired and Hurt all the Time!!!!

Last night was Very bad for me, my whole right side of my body went numb and it was Very hard to walk even with my Forearms Crutches to go bathroom. Also I had muscle spams all over my left side of my body at the same time.. This was caused by my C5-C6 Disk Ruptured in my Neck and my L4-L5 Disk Ruptured in my low back, thats pressing two sides on my spinal cord... Today, if God helps me, I will be in on Wheelchair now.. :'(

KristiAnn
MsGuidedAngel




Title: Re:My Story
Post by: Shammu on December 07, 2005, 12:16:04 AM
KristiAnn, never give up hope, as you know you are in my prayers always.

Resting in the hands, of the Lord.
Bob

Psalm 25:2 O my God, I trust, lean on, rely on, and am confident in You. Let me not be put to shame or [my hope in You] be disappointed; let not my enemies triumph over me.


Title: My Story
Post by: Kristi Ann on February 15, 2006, 04:09:42 PM
KristiAnn, never give up hope, as you know you are in my prayers always.

Resting in the hands, of the Lord.
Bob

Psalm 25:2 O my God, I trust, lean on, rely on, and am confident in You. Let me not be put to shame or [my hope in You] be disappointed; let not my enemies triumph over me.


Dear Bob and Everyone,  ;D

I am Extremely Happy Now, because I moved with a lot of help from Friends, and now I am Away from the one bedroom apartment of my Old Abusive room-mates too a Private 2200 square foot home! I have my own Private Bedroom and Private Bathroom also, woohoo! My Newer room-mate is Disabled and in a wheelchair also just like mine. He is a Strong Christian and treats me with respect and Christian Love. I feel Secure and Safe now!

My 1995 Jeep Grand Cherokee is Fixed and has a Viper Alarm System on it now is a Very Safe Neighbor hood, where an Undercover Police man and his family live in a home right accross the Street from me.  ;D

Its So Nice to Sleep in a Bed again after almost three years! I Also WON and Got My SSD Award Letter two days ago from the Social Security Administration (SSA) Saying I will Get Paid my Bigger Direct Deposit Checks on the March 3rd, 2006 and then after the 3rd of Every month Soon for the rest of my Life, Woo Hoo YaY!

Praise Jesus Christ for His Love Towards me and Everyone!

I had a Wonderful Valentines  Day and Nice Dinner at the Olive Garden Restaurant. I have a Real 10 Point Diamond Ring on my left Finger, the Diamond is placed inside the Rose that looks so pretty! My Ring has a Big Pretty Heart on the Outside and the Rose with the 10 Point Diamond is in the Center of the Rose! I didn't buy my Diamond Ring, my Really Nice Room-mate did for me!

God is Good Always, I am Really Happy Now, Praise Jesus Christ!!

Love  Always Everyone! YSIC \o/

KristiAnn
lilPrincess
MsGuidedAngel


Title: Re: My Story
Post by: TalkerCat on February 15, 2006, 11:49:59 PM
Dearest KristiAnn,

It's good to see you back again, and hear your 'good news'.  Hopefully now you've found some happiness.  I've spent a lot of time reading your past posts and I don't recall reading anywhere that you were thinking of anyone or anything but yourself.  I know from my own experience that thinking and being aware of others brings a humble hue to life, because EVERYONE HURTS, you're not alone even though you feel like you are.  There are several "severely disabled" Christians at this site and no one else laments their own afflictions,  and yet they bless those that do.  One of the first commands that God gives us is to "love your brothers" and "put others before yourself" ~ and I'm sorry, but speaking the truth (in love) I don't think you adhere to that.  I think you focus on yourself and expect others to, too.  Just today we learned that a beloved brother lost his grandbaby.... but he's praying for OTHERS.  A lesson we should all take to heart.

I wish the best for you and hope you take my words as constructive rather than critisism.  His light shines through those that reach out for others, in His name.....

Blessings-
Terri


Title: Re: My Story
Post by: Shammu on June 23, 2006, 01:29:04 AM
KristiAnn that is great news, sorry I hadn't seen this before tonight. As always, you are in my prayers.

Resting in the hands, of the Lord.
Bob