Will be praying for you SEEKING...cheer up and use your faith.
The lord does things for us in his own time, so pray and be patient
As for wisdom, the word of God tells us to pray for it.
Jam 1:5 If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all [men] liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.
Prayer and love by his spirit is the key, if you are a new christian...and should remain key as you walk with God and in his spirit.
God bless you