i want toys and to go places and do things but there isn't a career direction that interests me.
There was a time all I thought about was the right woman now I am still interested just fed up I don't think there is a woman out there for me. I watch too much TV and spend to much money on DVD's. I have 60thousand in debt and nothing to show for it. I spent 1200 this month on a car that still needs struts and to have the 4 freeze pugs on the engine replaced which is another 1600. I have a BS degree. I have gone through the motions and gotten by for so long I don't have the will or determiniation. I can't continue on 10$ an hour. I work as a security officer which requires very little of me. I am not a salesmen, I can't stand the idea of working in cubicles or on phones. I don't have a strong voice. Doing physical labor just gets old my body will burn out if thats all I do. I try to eat right and excercise but I don't stick to it. I am self-destructive. I am not happy I think because I condemn myself by what I approve and I am unwilling to confess my sins which are monsterous. I don't know that I am angry but maybe bitter and resentful. As my father said the other day, "what do you expect some sympathy?" I don't I would like to be comforted and to me the only thing I find comforting is the bossom of a woman
I have become contentious over the issue of order between a man and a woman and families. I feel alone at church because no one believes 1 Cor 11 that a woman should cover her head when she prays or prophecies. I hate this world and don't want to be a part of it. I know its wrong to hasten the end but I want it to be over. And no I am not suicidal just lazy and sulking apathetic or indifferent because I really do care I just don't want to try to do anything about it I am not the one I am to much of a hypocrite I can't pull the plank out of my own eye.
If a sad countenance is good for the heart I might not die from my first heart attack because I am alone. My mother thinks I am bipolar I think that is a load. I just see the world as it is hopeless without Christ. I am just not interested
Proverbs 18:1 He who separates himself seeks his own desire,He quarrels against all sound wisdom.
Hi Bart, I have a loving heart, so please read my words realizing I am
not condemning you. But I think you simply need to get first things first.
Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all other things shall be added unto you. Please seek to get your relationship with the Lord straightened out and first in your life. Confess any known sin, 1 John 1:9, and start afresh right now, knowing that you are forgiven and cleansed. A life walked in fellowship with God is a life of peace.
Learn to walk with the Lord moment by moment, day by day.....and try to learn to see your many blessings in life...even being able to see, walk, hear, etc, are blessings! We are so blessed in the USA and other Western countries in so many ways. Perhaps you might reach out and help someone less fortunate?....sometimes this helps.
Once you get your walk with the Lord (
not self-righteous or judgmental behavior), but a walking in the Spirit (to reject walking in the flesh) right.....I think your spiritual gifts will start to manifest in your life, and you will then find what career suits you best. (Usually our natural, God-given gifts come out naturally and are a joy to use.) Just some thoughts...hope they help.
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