Needing prayer for myself

[RachelRH]

Lately, I have been struggling with knowing whether or not I am good enough for God to love. And, at the same time I get angry with Him for leaving us "hanging" here on earth, while He is up in Heaven.

God gave us free will, yes, but why does He make things so hard for us sometimes? I know he is Omnipotent, and can rejoice for you and feel sorrow for another at the same time, but I don't understand why He leaves us down here to suffer on earth. Why did the story of Adam and Eve have to be the way it is? Why didn't it turn out different for us? Why is God in Heaven, and create us to suffer here on earth?

Does it all have to do with our attitudes and the way we see things? I am ashamed to say I know little of the Bible after being saved for 15 years. I have done many rollercoasters up and down, and still I am trying to hang on. But, life gets to be so difficult sometimes. I just keep searching for meaning, and I get nothing. No hope anymore.

I suffer from depression, anxiety and OCD. My OCD interferes a lot with my relationship with God. One day I will believe that He loves me, the next, I will think I am a bad person, who is not worthy of God's love.

I just feel so alone, and misunderstood...

Rachel

[nChrist]

Sister Rachel,

No man has ever been worthy of God's Love, but there is GOOD NEWS!! Gods loves us anyway, and Jesus Christ died on the Cross for us. This is love beyond imagination.

I give thanks that the Blood of JESUS on the Cross makes me worthy for eternal life with JESUS in Heaven. Our sins are washed away, and no power in the universe can pluck us from the Mighty Hands of JESUS.

Thanks be unto God for His unspeakable GIFT, Jesus Christ, our Lord and Saviour Forever!

Sister, I will be praying for you.

Love In Christ,
Tom

Romans 10:10  For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.

[RachelRH]

Thank you for your post, blackeyed peas. You seem to be the only one who cares.
I am feeling better today. Thank you for your prayers.

Rachel H.

[JudgeNot]

You seem to be the only one who cares.

Rachel -
Jesus cares.  He loves you more than His own life.  He proved it.  

Smile.  

In fact - LAUGH OUT LOUD!  

JESUS CARES!  It can't get any better than that!!!!    

Don't wager the farm away on actions of us dumb people - Give the farm to Jesus!  He's a excellent farmer!  He will make sure the "crop" grows.

(I care, too...)  

JN

[AJ]

  Yes we care... your father up above cares too

I will be praying also

The word says we need to pray and not faint...God is faithfull.

God bless you Rachel

[RachelRH]

OH my goodness! Sorry about my little slip of the tongue. I was just frustrated.
Thanks for showing you care. I am humbled...

Rachel

[JudgeNot]

OH my goodness! Sorry about my little slip of the tongue. I was just frustrated.
Thanks for showing you care. I am humbled...

Are you LAUGHING OUT LOUD???

I CAN'T HEAR YOU!!!!        

 

[RachelRH]

 

I have been encouraged...!

[Soldier4Christ]

I join with the others in prayer for you and with you.



Psa 31:23  O love the LORD, all ye his saints: for the LORD preserveth the faithful, and plentifully rewardeth the proud doer.
Psa 31:24  Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the LORD.

[SelahJoy]

RachelRH,

We've never "met" or even written so this feels a little funny to start off with an apology.  But *I'm sorry that I didn't write you this morning.

I thought about you though when I read ZakDar's morning devotional.  In it he mentioned "being pestered by...the devil...feeling lonely and unwanted..."  Immediately, I thought of you and hoped you would read his post.  I too had been discouraged, but feel that in just the past 24 hours, my soul has been lifted.  I pray that you are encouraged too.  Yesterday, a couple of very kind people from CU wrote me and it encouraged me greatly.  So I hope you accept my apology for not writing sooner.  Also, let us stay united in Jesus to pray for God's will.

Since it is so late right now, I'll be brief but want to tell you that Monday night, I was thinking real loud , is that possible  and my thoughts were "OH God!" over and over, so I left my friend's house and came home to be with God.  Then, this morning, ZakDar posted Romans 8.  my favorite verse, which he also apparently especially appreciated was ver 15, in which we are told that we are adopted and we get to cry out to our Abba (Daddy)!  If that were not good enough, I then saw a post called something like "Cry Out."  I read it and it was very encouraging.

But when all is said, I must admit that it is the prayers and responses sent to me, the answers to questions, the thoughts, opinions expressed, prayers requested and promised, all these and more I'm sure make a world of difference in our lives.  so, RachelRH, it is my sincere delite to "meet" you and as I go off to sleep now, you will be in my final thoughts and prayers for this day.

See ya later,  
selahjoy

[RachelRH]

Thank you Pastor Roger and Selahjoy.

I am doing better. Thank you for your prayers. I don't feel so depressed anymore, and last nite, I laughed for a whole hour, I feel this was a true gift from God. I was watching the show, "Fire me, please" and it was hilarious. I truly believe God gave me that one hour of laughter, it felt so good to laugh.

Thanks so much,
Rachel

[DovesWings]

I'm glad you've found laughter and feel better Rachel...
This is my first time back on the boards in a while...

Praying for you and God bless