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musicllover
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« Reply #5 on: September 04, 2004, 01:13:12 AM » |
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Luke,
Warm hugs, and a kiss on each cheek, welcome to United.
ever christian is tested. The scriptures tells us that satan roams the earth like a lion seeking those whom he may devore, another verse speaks about the devil wanting to kill steal and destroy. (my paraphrase)
Also the word talks about the refiners fire.....so YES christians are tested, sometimes daily, sometimes out of the blue. When you come to a time of testing the only way is thru the fire, and as the word promises you will be refined more pure than Gold. God will walk with you, find a scripture or two and hold on to them no matter what.
I hold on to those promises with a death grip, with all that I've been thru I feel like Jesus is all I have at least he doesn't change. My life took a topsy tervy ride about 6 years ago. My oldest then 16, had lots of troulbe at school with fights and grades, drugs, his personality, he ended up going to a military school, while he was there my 9 yr daughter was sexually abused, 18 month of dealing with the law, jumping thru hoops to please this one and that one, we waited on a trial, FINALLY we got our day in court and the perverts lawyer shot my then almost 11 year old off the stand because she could not remember certain details from 18 month before, the pervert was aquitted, the small town DA was no match for a big city lawyer, and the only response I got from the DA, I'm sorry we did our best, oh by the way if I had known the day before our trial a new law was passed, we could have plea bargained and the pervert would have gotten a misameanor charge but STILL been on the sex offender list ......which all that we had ever wanted....this process brought back my own terrible abusive childhood thinks I had purposely hidden from myself. But I sitll had to maintain my peace for my daughter sake teach her to forgive, and then he was let go, how do you explain that to a child when I had kept telling her the truth will be told, Gods love you, your ok, its not your fault....then a group of 12 people said it was? My oldest boy came home from military school to turn around and leave home barely 17 and move in with his girl friend, telling us what bad parents we were, I really need to hear that. My marriage was suffering under the strain, my father in law, my own father and my step father died during this time as well. All this with in 2 years time ... I finally crashed there was nothing more left of me, I remember being in bed, and one of my daughter asking me to help with her spelling words, I realized from her words that I had missed a vew spelling test......I begin to battle back to get out of that bed. Was my faith tested....yep, and I am still fighting back with the parts of me of me that is left, with what scriptures I know and I will come thru cause Jesus is with me even tho He felt a million miles away.......and he is with you as well.
Musicllover
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