It's that bread and whine thing!
I do whine sometimes!
Credenda Agenda had an excellent article on communion, and the continuing pursuit of purity and power in our worship. Ever since I read it, I feel somehow "cheated" whenever we drink grape juice instead of wine. We're still "doing it in remembrance", but we're drinking wimpy grape juice instead of the Real Thing. It feels as though we are substituting something plain for something Holy. (I'm probably just being proud...or something.)
So sad to hear of your church troubles, Butcha. As Ollie might say, its just a building, not the church itself; but its still hard to deal with.