It should not be posted, but I want to share ...

[apos]

Hi,

I think I should not post this, but I want share also receive some confirmation from you !

At saturday 3 jan 2004 I just ended one major strugle with God. The strugle are:

1. I want to QUIT from Christianity, buuut the presence of God is sooo strong, so after 2 major tries for 3 years, all are FAIL completely, last one at 3 jan 2004 23:00pm.

2. FYI, the way I quit is by inviting powerfull spirits from non-christ into my life, commiting sins (w/o harmfull by biology body, but spiritual yes), and therefore I expect 'automatically' kick-out Holy Spirit (bcos based on bible and some fleshy preacher that we should not comunicate with demons and sins, so it gives me good idea how to hurt God and therefore kick Him out), buuuuut God can not be foooled by such move ! He just ignore it can engage spiritual war directly with those non-christ spirits ! God teach me alot of spiritual world (by books and experiences) !

3. The major issue between me and God is 'just' this: He always prevent me from loving a girl since teen, now 30++. We can say that God might have special plan for us, but IF you experience it for more that 15years, haa .... guarantee frustation is the result (despite very strong presence of God 'everyday'). My human soul can not take it any more !


  Any of you experience such similar terrible things ?  
--> just focus on why He always block me from loving a girl ?

I expect this 'battle' has been ended today (based on signs given, but no proof yet, waiting for few weeks ahead)

Thank's to Jesus,
Apos

[nChrist]

Oklahoma Howdy to Apos,

First, I don't think that I've had the opportunity to welcome you to Christians Unite. I sincerely hope you enjoy it here and find fellowship that may help in your present trials.

Second, I will be praying for you that God gives you guidance to find His will and light the path He wishes you to take. There are many sweet Christians here who will pray with you and for you.

Love In Christ,
Tom

[Kris777]

   Imagine Jesus being born, growing up and becomeing a man.  Then He goes out to tell people about God and they reject, mock him.  He is tempted by the devil in the desert and overcomes that.  In His life He overcomes mockery and then ultimently death.  
   
    They made Him carry His cross, which had to be extremely heavy.  This after he fasted for 40 days and then had one last meal with His deciples!  Can you imagine the difficulty in that, just fasting 40 days had to make Him weak and dizzy and I'm sure the heat didn't help.  They whiped Him severly, nailed His hands and feet to the cross, which is extremely painful, put a thorn crown on His head and gave Him vinager to drink.  Then they mocked Him until He died.  Was this a fair death for our Lord?  No.  It should have been us that died.  Should He have had that life full of mockery? No. Can you imagine the pain that He felt when the very people that He came to save rejected and made fun of Him.  Man, He must really love us.  Look how terrible people treat God and He still loves us.

I bet you that, that girl that you love won't die for you.  Human love is only a conditional, but God's love is unconditional, you can do anything and He still loves you.  Why would you want to cause so much pain to someone that loves you so much.  Can you imagine how God feels.  You are hurting because of your girlfriend, He is hurting because He gives you immessurable love and you just push Him away.  He won't go away.  If you are trully saved you are stuck.

What will happen if your girl friend dies. Once she is gone she is gone.  Why would you want to hold on to something that you can loose?

I just want to illistrate how much God loves you.  Please, God loves you don't let the devil decive you.

[Sapphire W34P0N]

just focus on why He always block me from loving a girl ?

Yeah...15 years of rejection should tell you something. Just move on.

[apos]

thanks for response, it seem I sent wrong msg ...

It is not about salvation, or human love vs God's, also it is not about ugly personality/face/body therefore no girl, nor idol the girl, no...3x ! It is not a basic question issued by most chirstian. It is not about rejection from girl, in fact most/best girls in campus and high-school are 'mine'.

I expect reader are used to be with His guidance in life ! (Again, pls we do not talk about false spirits, nor demons, etc)

Fact, eventhough His prensence and guidance is sooo real in my life (with facts and witnesses), there is ONE single thing He always say NO, about love. Every time I resist His will, my feeling of love for he girl is removed compeltely, so next day she just tasted like other girl, I even donot care if she walk of some body ! I try manyyyy timessss to resist, finally fail. One time, He warned me 2 weeks prior to presense of the cute girl !

As most christian mind, I was thinking that probably This spritis was false one, so I decided to rebuked in name of Jesus, nothing happen, pastors can not help !

What I am looking now is answer (if any in this forum) expect someone share the similar experience !

How nice IF I can quit from His hand  


Do you think it is correct for God hurt human heart while Jesus is crossed for them ?
(pls do not focus on false-side of above question)


In Jesus,
Apos

[Sapphire W34P0N]

Holy...am I the only one who doesn't understand a thing apos just said?

[ebia]

Holy...am I the only one who doesn't understand a thing apos just said?

No

[Kris777]

I don't understand what you mean.  It is likely that any answer that we give you, you won't except anyway.  

Did you ever try praying for an answer instead of resisting God?  

Your actions leave me fustrated and your post makes my confused.  I feel that it is not my job to discuss this with you for possibly none of our answers will satisfy what YOU want to hear. So I won't be posting back, moveing on.

[Whitehorse]

Apos, that's some struggle. You're in the right place to talk about it, and as BEP says, we will pray for you.