You mention using thought. Then think on these things for awhile.
Well, the thought of surrendering my life just bothers me. I know the Truth is meant to set us free, but I'd just feel imprisoned since my heart doesn't want to surrender.
Without Christ is being enslaved to sin. Sin controls you. Without Christ is being enslaved and controlled by Satan and eventually will lead to being imprisoned in Hell. With Christ we are freed from the chains of sin:
Rom 8:1 There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.
Rom 8:2 For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death.
That is true freedom and a life that has true meaning.
The thing is, I keep thinking the above Truth. But it doesn't seem to sink in to my heart. It just seems like thought, as someone mentioned in my other thread. I dunno... I'm just really confused.
Accepting Christ and choosing to follow in His footsteps does start with the mind. It is thoughts that lead us to acknowledging that Jesus Christ is Lord and Saviour over all. It is in our heart that we open the door and let Him enter into our lives. It is in our heart that we experience the love that is above all loves. We love Him, why? Because He first loved us and we see this in the fact that there is no greater love than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.
Think about this awhile. God came to us in the flesh. He gave His life in our place that we may have eternal life. Yes, the most powerful person that there ever was and ever will be came to earth and suffered excruciating pain, horrendous agony and death just for us. He did all this because He loves us and wants us to live with Him forever.
Joh 15:13 Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.
It is just one step from mind to heart. You said that you have already taken that step. If not then now is the time to do so. If you did then Christ has already entered in and it is just a matter of your turning from the old ways, repenting, and following Him.