Hello alien_youth!
I am so excited that you are walking in the Lord's footsteps. I'm also 18 and I have alot to figure out about life and alot of better decisions to make when it comes to following in His footsteps.
I was also like you. I grew up going to church and I was into it and after my mother passed away I let it go for about 3 years and I felt as if something was missing from my life and I realized what it was, it was the Lord!
He
IS the answer & without Him you are never complete, in my opinion.
I'm also new to the fourms & I'm glad that you have joined, as well.
Keep Christ #1 and everything you do try your hardest to follow in His footsteps because he will never place a mountain in front of you that you are not able to climb.
God Bless