Ups and Downs

Well, what's there to say other than life is life. No better, no worse than before.

In 12 days, I return to my campus for the first of the last two semesters of my undergraduate years. There's much to be done, what with looking for grad schools and saving as much money as is possible. I'm having a hard time of it, I really am.

My stepmother had surgery on her foot yesterday, so she's about 70 - 80% out of commission for the next 6 months or so. My dad's working as hard as ever at the University, and my sister is beginning her senior year at high school. Everyone is moving on and moving up.

This Saturday, my Aunt Crystal is FINALLY marrying my Uncle Dan. I've found out through talks with my mother that about half the people, if not more, in my high school graduating class are married, and most of them have children. Two of my very best friends are married with children now. And here I am, struggling with a dating relationship.

I've begun, I guess you could call it dating, a man who lives a time zone away. I really don't know how to explain it. We love each other, and I suppose that works, but we're both terrified. No more pain. We began our relationship through prayer and counsel with God, and by discussing what we felt for each other with each other. I believe that this is one of the more solid relationship foundations I've been on. I've been told that beginning in prayer, there's a better chance of this being lasting. I hope that's true.

Anyway, I'm still alive. Still fighting the Devil for every inch of ground I can gain. It's hard to hold on most days, but when I feel like letting go, I reach up to God. My spiritual journey continues, but I feel changes coming over me. Small, yes, but good none-the-less.

I'll return when time is on my side. Until then, God bless you and keep you in His ways.