Looking Forward, Looking Up

[Wayfarer]

I started my membership here with a massive request for prayer for a very difficult trial that I was going through. I'm not sure how many of you are aware of it, but I won't go into it here. But I will thank you for the prayers you offered up.

I've been doing a lot of praying on my own lately, hard as it comes to me at times, and I've come to a few... conclusions. See, I've always had this problem about being alone. I hate it. Yes, I know that I'm never ALONE, because God is always and ever with me, but the kind of alone I'm talking about is romantic of sorts. I thought after this break-up that I'd die, but I didn't. The Lord kept me alive. And now, I'm beginning to feel lonely once more.

The thought that's occured to me is perhaps the Lord is telling me to stand on my own for a while. Brace myself upon my own two feet and see if I find my balance. Thus far, I think I've done alright. He has also brought people into my life that I have been able to connect with on new and glorious levels, such as my roommate for next semester, whom I love and adore. She's a wonderful friend. I've been able to see and do so many things lately, and I'm beginning to thank God that he took me out of that relationship, which wasn't good to begin with, and place me in a position to grow on my own, both mentally and spiritually.

Still, I pray for strength, because sometimes, the darkness gets overwhelming. I no longer pray for a resolution that will never come between myself and the other two involved, but I pray that I continue on the path that God has given me and not turn back onto what might have been. Forgiveness will come, in due time. Until then, I'll live my life for God and for myself.

[Rookieupgrade1]

Sounds like you have grown in leaps...............

Gods love will guide you, let it. I am happy that you see now that sometimes being alone is the only way to see your path. Prayer will give you clairity

Stay strong, God is with you.

[airIam2worship]

AMEN sister, I am very happy to see you.
I know it may be a little tough to be and feel alone, but that does not prevent you from going out with a group of friends from church and maybe go bowling, or to dinner, or just do something fun, biking, or skating.  Reading the Bible together can also be very uplifting, and the less time you are alone the less time you have to think about how lonely you feel. Sister, the best kind of romantic love and the most blessed is the one that the Lord chooses for you. He knows your needs, He knows your heart. He has someone very special for you. But I beleive that first you have to work on forgiveness. When we forgive someone we are benefiting ourself more so that the other person. God wants you to forgive, the New Testament alone contains 21 verses in regards to forgiveness. That is how important forgiveness is to God.

 Mt 6:15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

God wants to bless you, but you may be hindering your own prayers from being answered, and blessings to be poured out upon you.

Please don't take this the wrong way, I am not speaking of my own but I am telling you what the Word of God says.

I am glad to see that you are better than when you first joined CU
I will continue to pray for you my sister.

In Christ,
Maria.

[Wayfarer]

God wants to bless you, but you may be hindering your own prayers from being answered, and blessings to be poured out upon you.

Please don't take this the wrong way, I am not speaking of my own but I am telling you what the Word of God says.

I am trying to forgive, I really am. It's just hard to do, for all the reasons behind it that I've told, and some that I haven't. Believe me, the strength to forgive is also a much prayed for thing. I've forgiven for most of the wrongs, but some are harder to work past. But I am trying as hard as I can to move past all of it. It's the last step before my total freedom from the pain, I know it is.

Thank you for your kind words.

[airIam2worship]

I am trying to forgive, I really am. It's just hard to do, for all the reasons behind it that I've told, and some that I haven't. Believe me, the strength to forgive is also a much prayed for thing. I've forgiven for most of the wrongs, but some are harder to work past. But I am trying as hard as I can to move past all of it. It's the last step before my total freedom from the pain, I know it is.

Thank you for your kind words.

  I understand Wayfarer, don't be so hard on yourself. I will pray for you to be completely able to forgive. 

You do have a lot more confidence in youself, I commend you on that.

your sister in Christ
Maria