Hi Jennifer, I am new too.  I am a daycare provider in California.  I have a 12 and 17 year old. I take care of babys.  Bless you and your family.  What a difficult situation you have been through.  Thank you for sharing.  It makes me realize that much more how important my job is and how important it is that I pay attention to every little detail that the two darling little babys I take care of need. I consider sometimes taking a job outside my home so that I can have more interaction with other women, but I know god has blessed me with a love for babys and their need for a safe place when moms have to work.  And god knows many moms have to work to make the bills. well, I just wanted to let you know your in my heart and i've said a prayer for you.  God bless.  Lisa Renee