So, if I believe and accept Christ, I will not have to face judgement?  Becuase it seems impossible to lead the life he wants, and if you don't, on judgement day, your doomed.

Ok. I'm just gonna start from the beggining. I have so many questions.

I'm 13.  I live in a household of Catholics, although its been years since I've been to a church. I was baptized when I was younger...but now, I'm desperately afraid of going to hell. I have asked Jesus into my heart and my life, and tried to be saved, but I don't think its working- either becuase I don't really believe, or it isn't out of love for God that I am praying, but for fear of the devil. I just want God to touch my life like he has so many others.

People say to read the bible- I try, but it scares me. It seems every passage is there to reassure me of my trip to hell, and it's just not fair anymore.  I fear so much now...If you didn't live with me, you could never know- I have great freinds, play sports, etc..but no one knows when I get home I listen to my brother curse and swear at my mom, and watch her break into fits of rage and then tears. I can't take it anymore, and coupled with my religion fears its almost to much to bear. I'm not suicidal becuase I'm afraid to die without being sure I will go to heaven. I fear the end times, everything, and I just need help in how to get Jesus and the Holy Spirit into my life. Pray for me, do whatever...just please help me.