ut nostrum abbas...

[Pater Historiae]

Aramaic to Modern English Translation



Dear Father,



When you told me to take this body, I did not know what you had meant.  It was something that I really had not conceived of before.  To step inside of one of your children is something that only a clear conscience could bare.



The sensation is just as amazing as it is frightening.  Fear is something that I am really not used to.  Not this kind of fear. The fear of dying.  Not existing.  It was all incomprehencable to me until these moments.  



The sadness. It has been something I have always felt, but never like this.  This sadness, it is like a stone, heavy in my chest.  When it lifts, the relief is liberating.  Liberation is something unique which I have never experienced until now.  It comes and goes with the sadness.  It comes after I see her smile.



Her presence.  It fills me with a warmth. A tranquil serenity and a feather's tickle in my chest where the stone once layed.  Her eyes break the sadness with hope.  Hope that one day I may be her own.  Hope of appeasing this new kind of love that is invading my heart now.  A love odd to me.  A love as opposite as it is similar to the love that has always filled me.  I have never experienced such a love as this my father.  I can only thank you for this opportunity with great gratitude.



                                                                                    Your Son,

                                                                                   Jesus of Nazareth

[Shylynne]

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