I do have a problem with trying to be too independent though. I don't want to let anyone do anything for me. I want everyone to know that I can do it myself.
Sister, that is your problem that you have.............. In order for God to really work, you have to give yourself completely to Him. Until you do that, you will have these feelings you have. Please see the verses I have posted below for you. I will be praying for you sister.
Acts 16:30-32 And he brought them out [of the dungeon] and said, Men, what is it necessary for me to do that I may be saved?
31 And they answered, Believe in the Lord Jesus Christ [
give yourself up to Him, take yourself out of your own keeping and entrust yourself into His keeping] and you will be saved, [and this applies both to] you and your household as well.
32 And they declared the Word of the Lord [the doctrine concerning the attainment through Christ of eternal salvation in the kingdom of God] to him and to all who were in his house.