Hello...I wanted to offer to you hope.  I have been married for 27 years and during this last year it has been the hardest year of marriage.  I have lost both mother and father in-law in 2008.  But something happened and I don't know what.  But going through a year and a half battle of cancer and other things, God has brought us back together.  We have always been together, but took each other for granted and basically was a man and a woman living in the same house.  I loved my husband, but was no longer in love with him.  I am not a talker and throughout my marriage kept hurts and dissapointments buried beneath the surface.  Something broke last year and allowed me to open up and start talking to him and I can now say that I am happier than I have ever been in my life.  I feel as if I have just gotten married for the first time.  So don't lose hope and keep seeking God and have others keep on praying that you will get what you are seeking.