My name is Michelle.  I am desperate to find others to pray with me.  In January, my husband completely shocked me by telling me he no longer wanted to be married to me and was unwilling to work on our marriage.  He refused counseling, talking to our pastor, or anything that might help.  I knew we had some intimacy issues - and the last year and a half was tough as i was caring for my 56 yr old mother who was dying of cancer - she was my best friend and i know that this situation caused some depression - But we talked often and he promised that he loved me - that issues like this would only make our marriage stronger.  On top of this we had been trying for 18 mos to get pregnant.  Three days after he told me he wanted a divorce, I found out we were finally pregnant.  He still wants nothing to do with me - will not discuss our marriage or the problems he thinks that we have that can't be solved.  He is completely unwilling to discuss anything as it related to us.  Though he still wants to be a father.  I have no family or friends where we live in VA..  In order to cope with this - I need to move home to WI where there are people that care about me.  Brandon (my husband) supports this.  Our settlement agreement is almost final and I am scheduled to move next Saturday April 5th.  As much as i don't want to leave my husband, I was told that if i have the baby here in VA, he could then petition that i am unable to leave the state and then i would be stuck here without any support.  I continuously try to convince him to reconsider - but to no avail...  Tonight i am again going to make a nice dinner to try and talk to him.  He says that he still cares about me, but that he does not want to be married to me...  As happy as i am about my pregnancy, my sadness over my husbands decision continues to outweigh..

I honestly don't know where else to turn.  I immediately contacted his parents who claim to be Christians - hoping they would talk with him and encourage him to work on our marraige - but that only backfired and they have completely disowned me after saying some pretty nasty things about me.  I have contacted our pastor who said 3 mos ago that he would call and chat with Brandon, but he never did.  I have been seeing a Christian counselor myself and she seems to think that it is best if i just let him go and move on with my life.  I just don't understand this - I don't believe in divorce and I am aware of what the bible says. I thought that these people that i contacted would at least get somwhat involved to try and save our marriage... but noone seems to care but me.

I love my husband as much now as the day we married - just 2 1/2 yrs ago.  I know that we gone thru some difficult circumstances - more than most in our short marriage - but my faith in him or our marriage has never wavered.  Last year we went to a Weekend to Remember - Family Life weekend.  We both signed an agreement that divorce would never even be an option in our marriage.  When i asked him about this - he said that was a whole year ago...

I beg that you please pray for my marriage - I know that I too have made mistakes and i am willing to make even difficult changes - please pray for my husband Brandon - that he has a change of heart.  For our unborn child, that she/he knows how loved he truly is even though i am so depressed.  And please pray for me - for the strength to handle whatever my future hold.

Thank you.
Michelle