I am almost 37 years old. I have a wonderful wife of 17 years(married her when she was a senior in high school). I have 3 beautiful children(2 boys and a girl).My job is to be sought after. Up to a few weeks ago, I was so miserable every second of every minute of every day that all i could do was wish for death. I have not been on drugs, I have not been unfaithful to my wife or any of the other well known sins. I was simply miserable day and night. I seeked help from professionals and was fortunate enough to meet a counselor that gave me a guideposts(thought conditioners) booklet. From the first time I read the first scripture in it, I found relief. I have been happier and more content than any days of my life. I continually try to communicate with God through Jesus Christ. I do not know why it took me almost 37 years to get to this point, but I am grateful beyond words. I truly did not want to live like I was living anymore. I could not put my finger on what was wrong, but with God's grace, I have found peace. I have a desire now to study God's words and all the sins that I was committing, I have a better acknowledgment and control of them. I am in no way perfect. I do however strive to be like Jesus. I fear that in time I will forget what he has done for me as so many do. If one of Gods 12 disciples denied him three times, I fear that I will disappoint God as well. May he have mercy on all of us.