Let me ad this though, although my finacial situation among many other areas of my life have been torn to shreds, I must say, the Lord has kept me fed, housed and clothed, its what he promised, and certainly what hes blessed me with, I still pray that i can finish my project before i leave this fallin world, even if i never sell one, i would like to complete what he has helped me start. P.S. espeacially when the gas prices shoot up,

 i have been a follower for well over ten years, i have been threw satans trials, torments and tribulations, and i feel like a ragdoll. battered bruised and banged up.
 I know many have seen the pit to rise to the top, my storys are nothing like that, the pits i encounter continue down, prayer has never been answered for me, instead only more hardship and trials.
 I am aware that God doesnt want us to become comfortable in this fallin world,
And just resently when i could see a light at the end of my financial troubles, was only one job away from being able to break this ten-plus years of being poor, All my work stopped, leaving me with my project half done.
 I know the Lord had brought me this far, to then watch as the god of this world halt my progress.
He knows that if i were to succeed i would help others, he cant have that.
 sorry about venting like this, i pray to find more wisdom in him everyday, thats why in here.