I'm going to asia to live, i am getting married to a Japanese girl, and my screen name is a name i have always liked, it means Success; prosperous journeying; -- a contraction of the phrase, "God speed you."
I like to race, thats where i got it from.

oh, tibby- dude you are awsome.... well first off i went on the missions field b/c i wantted to become a missionary at the time, i also gave more money away than i spent, and another thing i don't have the internet, i use my schools, and i will be moving to asia after i grauduat, and another thing, i don't call myself a christian, right now i don't know what i belive, so why should i make christians look bad, b/c i don't live like one

I know i sound bitter or mad, and i am, but jesus was mad when he saw how the jewish senagag was turned into a market to make money

tibby- you know what so far you have said nothing good, so i don't really care what you think at all, you sound more messed up than me, so type your reply but it just makes you look bad

LinuxGeek- you sound like you mean well, so even though i don't really get it, thanks

Searcher - ok, sure, but i am just being honest, this is the only place that i don't have to worrie about what people think to much, i mean, i don't think any of you know really who i am, but yeah, i bet i am wrong in some ways, thats cool...just tell me what you think, thanks

Whitehorse - thanks, you have said some good things

to everyone i wish i could reply but the lab is closing, so thanks to some and to others, well if you want to help then reply if you don't just make yourself look bad

Tibby- how much did i give, and what is my cash to work ratio, well currently i am a student, and i work to pay for my own college, i actually gave a lot both in going over there, and while i was there, i don't need to tell you how much i gave or how much i gave up, just say i am still paying for it after 4 yrs, and no matter what i believe, Jesus or no Jesus, i will always help the children of Asia, and where ever else i can, i spent a month on the streets of Vietnam working with kids that had nothing, giving both money and love, and i would not take any of that back, i can't wait till the day i can help more, i hope i didn't come off as seeming like i know it all, its just after spending so much time with these kids, and when they never except Jesus and so now i am espoused to believe that they will go to hell, actually when i was in Vietnam i could not tell them about god, i could only answer there questions, but you love on a ten year old kid, and then look into his crying eyes when you have to leave, and then while you are going home the only thing you can think about is this kid is probably going to go to hell, thats hard. I would rather go to hell and let him go to heaven in my place, i don't want to believe this, i want it not to be true, oh, and my i say that at the time i went on this trip i was only 17, and i could only spend 2months total in Asia b/c of school, i spent the first month in Thailand.

I just wonder if anyone else has gone through this before, or is?

linuxgeek - not to be mean, but that really does nothing for me

Royo - i don't understand how it is because of men, i mean men are b/c of god, its not like god didn't know what was going to happen when he put the tree in the garden, its like putting a baby next to a pool and telling him not to swim or touch the water, that would make you a bad parent, so its just like god putting a fruit in front of or face and saying don't eat it, why is it there in the first place? but also, your reply seems to be the most caring and i thank you for that!

Tibby- one more thing, i don't consider myself to be a Christian anymore therefore i am not held to the standards of the bible like you are.

one othere thing, when you go to a poor place like vietnam, and then you come back to your home church and find out that they want to buy more land, when they alredy have to much, or they buy a new sound system when the old one is still good, or new carpet when the old is good, stuff like this, and then you know that there are people going hungry, and have no christian resorses this makes you so mad, i also know that not all churches are like that, but most are, the ones that get by with what they have, i respect them, they give me hope

Ok, well first off i don't know if this is in the right form or what, if not sorry, ok, here is my story, i have been a christian since i was in the 3rd grade, 9yrs old, now i am 24, maybe i shouldn't say since, b/c now im not sure, i have a long history in the church, my parents are not even christian, i became one on my own, i have been on over 5 missions trips lasting from 1week to 2 months to Thailand, Vietnam, Mexico, Malaysia, starting from the age of 13, and i did a year internship w/ a missions org. but now i don't really like a lot of Christians, or the church, in fact i can't stand the church, at least in America, to me the American church is a fat guy at a private buffet and a thousand of hungry people outside not even knowing there is food in the next room, i get so mad when i think about the church, but thats a different story, it comes from my missions background, and if your a pastor i hope you think about that, in my mind the pastors gotcha8 me off the most, or the church board, selfishness is so rapid...anyways i need to stop there w/ that, so my question is does anyone ever think that we have this whole thing so jacked up, i mean when you go to a different country and just look around you see millions of people that have no clue of this Jesus thing, i don't know if you have ever been to another country, but you go to one and just stand there and think to yourself, all these people are going to hell, and they have no clue, what is up w/ that, how can god do that? even if it is true, it makes me not want to be apart of it, i hate it, i just spent 6 months in a different country and it messed me up thinking about it, i don't want it to be true, i don't know if anyone can reply to this, but it just makes me feel better saying it, oh and don't give me an common answer please, i can give myself that, man i bet you can tell that i am a little bitter towards Christians, so sorry for that