Pastor Roger, it just happens that I am currently in a state of caeer crisis and health problems. I graduated in 2004 with a degree and have been searching for a stable job for the past almost 3 years but sometimes due to my own mistakes and other times due to other circumstances such as my medical conditions  (I suffer from epilepsy and sleeping problems) my employers have all asked my to leave. I confess that I have really strived hard to improve myself and yet I have made no progress unlike my friends who are now advancing in the fields of their career. I can't help but envy those around me whose lives are progressing on so smoothly be it my friend or my family members. Thus this envy turns to hatred and I vented my anger out on my dad and sister on thursday night. It was only through cooling down this morning and having a talk with my mum and dad that I realised how much my actions had aggravated the strained relationship between my parents as it happned that my mum was working when the matter occured that night. Now my mum is considering resigning from her job partially due to my wilfulness. She says that this way at least she will be able to fulfuil the responsibilities  of a mother when crises arise. However I do not want her to make such a huge sacrifice for me. Afterall, it won't do matters any good.

Thank you Pastor Roger for your reply. The thing that has comforted me when reading the Bible was the passage when Jacob had his reunion with Esau and thankfully his brother bore no grudges against him and completely forgave him. Now, I can only hope for my family members to forgive of the sins I've caused them, especially my parents and my second sister.

Dear Pastor Roger, I have a question to make. I have just read through a passage of Gensis and I wonder about the relationship between Jacob and Esau. Quite often, I have been very envious of my siblings thinking that I was treated like Esau. It was only through a family "event" that happened today then I realised that I had been the one carrying out the act of deception and hurting those around me. I wonder if it is too late to repent.