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God bless you all for the love, understanding, and information you have shared with me! It has really made a difference in my life. The scriptures you posted and the comments really made me sit down and think about this situation. Before coming to this site it was really like having a brain block. I didn't seem to be able to think clearly about the situation.

Brother Tom you really got me to ask some tough questions of myself. Especially the last statement in this paragraph.

"We are living during a time where many Christians are being persecuted simply for being Christians. The Bible tells us this will happen in the end days of this Age of Grace. An employer has no business of telling you what faith or lack of faith you will have. We might all be looking at a time of persecution: if so - so be it. JESUS CHRIST gave his life for me, and I will happily suffer some persecution in HIS NAME. I'm retired and disabled, but I still think there are plenty of Christian employers who would be glad to have you. You would be much happier even if there was less money and benefits."

The job was "safe". I say that meaning I earned 18 vacation days a year and paid holidays. I had a good salary, plus commissions, and great benefits. I was without a doubt financially secure. You were also very correct about my job being a living nightmare. The company had a less than sterling reputation. I almost felt I was protecting my clients. I would not lie for the company and I often times helped a client so I made sure they got what was due to them. I once had someone within the company question if I worked for the company or for my clients. I stated I worked for the company but, the company would not make me lie, be dishonest, cheat someone, or compromise my morals and standards. It was a very stressful enviornment. I watched my co-workers lie and mistreat clients. It got so stressful that I cried out to God and asked him to grant me the patience of Job.(Remember the old saying... be careful what you ask for?) I had suffered through ridicule, harassment, and humiliation and then things got worse. However, I felt I was being a witness for God and helping people so I felt I should stay there.

On many occassions I had people come talk to me about God. There are two very memorable ones. I met a missionary who had traveled and devoted his life to God for over 60 years. (This was before they told me I could not speak with clients about God) He came in and sat down and fellowshiped with me for over an hour. He was such a witness to me. This gentleman made me more determined that ever to follow the Lord. On the other occasion I was outside taking a break - there was so much stress and confusion. I was going over and over in my mind a course of action. A gentleman just walked up to me. I do not remember ever seeing him before. I just remember that he had the whitest hair I have ever seen. He did not introduce himself. He just walked up to me and said.... "it is going to be ok." I said, Huh? Then he said...."God can take care of anything... you know that don't you?" I answered back yes I do know that. I felt it was very strange since he did not know my situation or even my name. It was a short conversation but the gist of it was to give it all to God and He would take care of it. I still to this day do not know his name or where he came from. He just walked up to me from it seemed like out of nowhere.

I have a Christian friend who has counseled me on several occasions. She once stated to me that this situation would be my testimony. I thought to myself... testimony? How can a testimony come from all this confusion, misery and anxiety? I think I have finally figured it out.....

I would ask for God's help but, I would not turn the situation over to God. I kept working on it and worrying about it and trying to hang onto a bad situation. I thought I cannot let this job go - even to go on medical leave. I have financial obligations - what will I do? Then my employer asked me to deny God or lose my job. I had a choice. I could sell my soul to satan for the financial stability and health benefits the job offered and deny God or I could follow God - leave this job and just turn loose of the problem and let Him lead me where He wishes me to be.

As of November 26th I am no longer working for this company. (They called it a voluntary resignation) I am still on medical leave. God has allowed me to pay off bills and reduce my monthly debt. He has supplied all my food, clothing and shelter. He has greatly reduced the stress in my life. I have been given the opportunity to speak to dozens of my clients that I thought were going to be unreachable. I go into a store and see at least one to two clients a week. I realized that my friend was correct. There was a testimony in this situation....

I found it in the Bible (King James Version) Mark Chapter 8 Verses 33 - 38:

33: But when He had turned around and looked at His disciples, He rebuked Peter, saying, "Get behind Me, Satan! For you are not mindful of the things of God, but the things of men."
34: When He had called the people to Himself, with His disciples also, He said to them, "Whoever desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me.
35: "For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake and the gospel's will save it.
36: "For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul?"37: "Or what will a man give in exhange for his soul?"38: "For whoever is ashamed of Me and My words in this adulterous and sinful generation, of him the Son of Man will also be ashamed when He comes in the glory of His Father with the holy angels."

I am going to look for a job where I can be of a benefit to the Lord. I am going to go where He leads me. I am going to trust in him FULLY and if a situation such as this ever arises again I will immediately turn it over to God and take my hands off.

Maryjane, I am also going to read and meditate on the Bible and put on the whole armour of God daily. This is one thing I failed to do - I feel I went into the battle but, I wasn't armed as I needed to be.

I want to say thank you again to each every person who posted a response to my question. I read every line and thank you for the prayers. I feel you all helped me battle and reach the place I am now.

My testimony is: Jesus Christ gave His life for me. I will put no person, possession, job or object before Him. I will trust God in ALL things and I will serve Him as long as I live.

Thank you all once again. I look forward to speaking to you in the future.

Love in Christ,
Lindy