Thank you! I've definitely found a lot of excellent reading here.

Not too long ago, it would have been hard to imagine me seeking out advice and fellowship from Christians, but my perspective on life has changed considerably in recent months. I got saved and baptized in a Baptist Church but attended  Assemblies of God churches for the majority of my childhood and teenage years. I believed strongly in Christ and Christian values until my latter teenage years, read my Bible and prayed every day, went to church twice a week, but then changed dramatically. What happened from there is a blur, but to make a long story short, I had a very rebellious time in my life and entirely rejected Christianity for over a decade. Last year, things culminated with drug abuse, a nervous breakdown, and hospitalization from an attempted suicide. It was at that lowest point, that I finally understood the completely hopeless path in life I'd chosen and slowly, I've worked to change my life for the better. The turning point for me was remembering what it felt like when I was saved, when I was baptized, and a few profound experiences I had with Christ early on in my life and realizing no matter how rotten I'd been, He was still there, watching and waiting for me to come back to Him. Now, as I'm approaching turning 32 years old, I'm mellowing out and rethinking a lot of hurtful things I've said and done. Looking back, it is as if I've built an entire identity on being a hateful, angry person, especially towards Christians. Anyway, as I said before, my perspective has changed. At the risk of sounding hokey, I sincerely feel like God is moving in my life and calling me back. It's a confusing time for me, but I was hoping to be able to talk to people. I haven't been in a church in 14 years, but I am planning on going back soon. I'm finding it tough to get the courage to do as I'd have to take that step alone into a place where I'd feel like an outsider. I haven't decided whether or not to go back to the old church I attended as a child or seek out a new one, but I'm taking things slowly. I probably won't post much here, but I'm reading and learning. If anyone has any advice, I welcome it. I'm grateful to have a place to go semi-anonymously to be able to gain insight and hopefully find good advice. I'm far from a perfect person, but I'm trying to learn to be a better one and coming here is just one more baby step for me in a new direction. Anyway, thanks for having me and thanks for reading.