I'm at war with my flesh. My body is in rebellion. I know God loves me but what do I do about this body that continues to be tempted time and time again. My spirit is willing but my flesh is weak. I know this very well. I'm wondering if anyone can tell me about bringing the body into subjection. I fasted everyday for a year. Here I am again with my body in the same state of rebellion as it was before I first began that year of fasting. I don't have the self control that I would like to have. To be truthful I hate myself sometimes. I am against myself which confuses me. I want to do good but sometimes I end up doing what is not. I feel so guilty afterward. I hate my ways with a passion. I believe it was Paul that said "to die is gain". Does this mean Christians should long for death of the body? Does this mean that the Bible advocates self hate? Am I to live my life longing to die? Are my feelings about myself normal. Does anybody else feel like I do. I just feel so tired of the same cycle of sinning and asking for forgiveness. I feel like I'm not growing spiritually. How can I guard myself against myself.