I have recently rededicated my life to Christ and have been trying to live a godly life. Something has come into my life from the past that I need desperate help. Here goes........
I have a brother who is 6years younger than I and a sister who is 10years younger than I. Growing up we played doctor quite often. I say this not in my defense....I do take full blame. However; we were all young, curious, experimental AND I was STUPID. And I know one incident when it went too far....and I know that once was one too many it should never have happened. It never, ever happened again after this one time. And now this has resurfaced with my sister that she does not want me at her wedding. My brother says he has suppressed it and dealt with it in his own way. Something that my sister has not been able to and to which I fully understand. My question is being a rededicated christian how do I deal with this and with my siblings? Can God forgive me? Is repenting and saying "I'm sorry" not enough that it does not matter to God and I am doomed to hell regardless because of what I did 20years ago? I might not receive the forgiveness of my brother and sister, but can I get right with God? Is it possible? This is more important than any forgiveness from my siblings. Is there a way to get right with God and how?