I feel for you sister. I to use to do drugs on occasion before the Lord freed me from that addiction. I had to come to the point where I really wanted God to take it from me so badly,
I fasted and prayed and God heard my cry and gave me the strength to quit. Praise God.
I think its all a matter of timeing, God has his time, and we have ours, some people just have to hit bottom before they want to change bad enough to seek the help that only God can give.
Our prayers do not go unheard, I would get as many people as you know to pray for your husbands eyes to be opened to what this addiction has done to him and his family, so that he will repent and seek God in a new and stronger way, and will change his addittion to drugs for an addiction to God.
Maybe you can get a pastor to visit him and talk with him while hes in jail, and maybe do a bible study with him to bring him closer to the truth, and change his heart.
Ive heard many testimonys of God freeing people from addiction, but it will take willingness and want on your husbands part for God to work in him.
With God, all things are possible. Dont give up, give it to God.
Bless you, I will pray for you. Hang in there sister!

Sorry for the delay, but thank you all for the warm welcome!
I feel Gods love coming through you all. God bless you.

My testimony could take all day, so I'll post it later.
I had a thought Id like to share for now though.

My suffering becomes a blessing as I use it to Gods glory
and testify of what hes done for me.

So simple yet so true.
Now that I am saved, all the suffering of my lifetime now
becomes a tool to glorify God. As if it was all meant to be.
The pain that use to torment me no longer does, and I welcome the thoughts of it instead of dread. Its like I went through boot camp for training or something. Now, I am a worrior. Praise be to God.
Any other words escape me so I hope Ive said it sufficient.

Hello all you out there!
I gave myself the handle still-on-milk because even though Ive been saved for years and have come a long way, I still find that I have so far to go. I look forward to growing closer to God and more spiritual every, and I am blessed and find joy in the prosses. Praise God!!
I look forward to the fellowship here, and feel it will be a blessing as we hold eachother up and grow together amen!

Im having a problem with my computer here, I keep getting a blank screen afterward, I hope I dont end up posting this multiple times!! Nevermind, I just saw that I got disconected somehow, no wonder!! oooopppsss!!
o.k. I'll try this again now.

Hello there! Im also new. What a great place to be hugh?!
Good fellowship with brothers and sisters is a blessing.

I thought of you again today, as I feel for you and know that we all deal with the same struggles. The devil only has so many tools, but our tool is the Lord who is stronger than anything the devil can throw at you. Through Christ we can do all things.
I want to share my testimony with you, and hope that you see this and can be aware. I have the same struggle as you, and lonelyness can cause us to be in the flesh if we are not holding on to God for strength.
I have been strugling for years with lonelyness and I have recently had conformation to hold every thought in captivity to the Lord. Even just thinking about men in the wrong way can cause a spirit of lust to attach itself to you. At that point
your flesh is against you and  this spirit of lust will tempt you. It not only causes you to desire men, but it causes men to desire you. This is very dangerous, and the Lord has confirmed this in my own life. It is very important to keep every thought in captivity of God and make your relationship with him strong. Depend on him to keep you strong and aware of the spiritual world and its dangers to you, so that you do not give in to the flesh or sinful thoughts that are just as dangerouse as they will tempt you and are si in themselves. I have had men attracted to me and me to them from this. And God has shown me my weakness, and made me aware of the danger.
As I learn to hear Gods voice and lean on him, he helps me to
change my sinful behavior that keeps my relationships with men in a state of unhappy failure. I also grow closer to God and become more pleasing to him, and more blessing comes as a result. I become spiritually stronger, and closer to God.

Please be aware of all of this and understand that even just lustful thoughts are evil, and open a door for sin. This is what it means to hold every thought in captivity, by keeping your mind and spirit pure for God. The blessing of the right union with a man that God intends will come after we learn this.
We will not have happyness untill then, but constant failure and misery.
Praise God for his mercy and love that he provides a way out of this if we turn to him. What a magnificent loving God. I am in awe.
I hope this has been helpful to you. God bless you sister.

Hi Freak. I dont mind your name because I know how you feel.  

I agree with the others here that you need to put God first.
I am struggling as you are and I feel God telling me that I need to put him first. It is lonely sometimes, but I am to the
point that if its not what God has for me, then its bound to fail, and I would rather be alone for the rest of my life than to be used or abused and have a failed relationship again.


I have been with seven men in my life. The details are long and ugly, so I'll spare you, and hope you understand.  I have nothing to show now for it but regret, heartache,  four fatherless children, one of which got molested by my ex. and the rest is to personal and shameful to mention.
Ive been lied to by every single man, used, and taken a heavy spiritual beating. I have been broken down so badly in the search for love that I never had from any man. But our Heavenly Father has the only true love and supplys our needs as we are ready. I know he wont show me the one Im to be with untill Im happy with him alone. I know God wants me to grow in him and heal my spirit before I would be fit to have any relationship. There is so much more to my story but I would be here all day, but I know that Im blessed and it could
have been so much worse.

If its not from God, its not worth it. I have had to learn the hard way. If you ignore God, you suffer for it. Please dont abuse yourself further by dooming yourself to failure.
You got  prayer from me sister. Save yourself for the one God has for you, please! Learn from my mistakes so you wont have to suffer the same or worse. PLEASE!!!!