I will try to explain without getting to long!

A couple of months ago I was at my wits end.  My husband is deployed, work stress, life stress, and I just could not take it any more.  So I asked for God's guidance.  He layed two things on my heart.  One to get back in church and he led me to a WONDERFUL church that I feel completely comfortable in.  Two he led me to quit my job.  I took a step on faith and I did so, without really knowing if I should be moving to where my husband is stationed for another 6-8 months or moving to a new town we both want to live in when he is done with this deployment or staying put.

Since quitting my job I have decided I want to go to college and become a teacher possibly in Special Ed or working with blind/visually impaired children.  I would like to go to college in this new town where we are wanting to settle but I am just not sure.  I have been confused over that, feeling in a way by moving to this new town I am choosing a career over my husband even though he totally supports me starting college now before he gets home.

Tuesday night of this week I prayed again.  For more guidance that if I was to move to hubby, move to this new town or stay put to just open a door for me so I know where to go.  I felt like I had the weight of the world on my shoulders.  The next morning I got a call for an interview in the new town we want to move to.  I went for it and was asked back for a 2nd interview before I left town.  

I feel I am being pulled to this new town, but not certain this job is for me.  But never doubting Gods wisdom maybe he might know something I don't about this new job!

I also feel compelled to stay here and enjoy the new church I have found.  

I am really confused and I have been praying alot on this trying to figure out just what it is I am supposed to do.  Please keep me in your prayers that God will give me the guidance and let me know where I should be.  I am willing to go wherever he thinks I can best serve him.  

My husband is National Guard and deployed (stateside).  I have emailed you.  I will keep you both in my prayers.

Thanks, I have struggled tonight but I have decided I am making the right decision.  

When I get down, I put on gospel music, and tonight the first song was about putting your faith in God and never doubting when you do that.  I just started crying because I was trying to do that but was afraid to because I didn't feel the total support of my husband.

But I have talked to my husband many times tonight and he says he supports me 100%.  I am so much at peace, a peace I haven't felt for a LONG time.  I know this is the right decision.  So tomorrow I go to work and give my notice.  

Thanks for the kind words though when I needed it most.

I hope this is the correct forum to post in.  I apologize in advance if this gets long winded.  Please bear with me though I really have to get this out, and I need help.

Over the last several weeks I have been at my lowest low.  I finally asked God for guidance and several things came to me the next day.  I wasn't looking for the answers they just popped into my mind that this is what I should do.

One of them was find a church home.  Which for the first time ever in my life I walked into a church alone.  I felt welcome and quite comfortable and in part his sermon was about being at your lowest low and while you are down in that valley the devil will keep whispering in your ear to keep you down, but if you just pray for guidance and ask for Gods hand he will help pull you out of that valley.  I believed from that point on that God has led me to that church for a reason.  I have not been able to make the last two Sundays since but I will be there this Sunday no doubt.

The second was about my work situation.  I have struggled for a long time about my job.  I am happy in what I do, but not with whom I am doing it!.  My husband has been deployed 3 times now, while the last two are of his own choosing the first one we thought he was going to Iraq.  I have had to miss alot of time because of that and because of chronic migraines.  I was struggling a few weeks ago about weather I should take off time to see him on Memorial Weekend and at the end of June because I am out of leave and some of that would require leave without pay.  It came to me that same day that I should ask off for both and if they don't accept it then I should quit.  

I have seen God work in my life in the past in similar situations and I truely feel that if I take a step out on faith that he will provide.  My husband, however, is not so certain of this.  We can financially afford for me to quit as we have worked quite hard to get out of debt, however, we want to buy a home and he is afraid that will be put off for a while if not forever.  I don't see it that way.  I totally see that somehow someway God will provide an answer for me.  

Now for my question.  I guess my biggest fear is that its not really God talking to me.  I THINK it is, but how do I know for sure.  I have been away from church for a long time, never totally away from God though.  Would in just one prayer I get such life changing events occuring?  I have been at such peace since I got these answers.  And sitting here now contemplating if I should give my notice tomorrow or not I am nervous but not afraid.  I can't explain my peace, but I know in my heart of hearts its the right thing.  I feel I need a change and I know if I don't just leap right out there then I will never get out of this job.  My husband is scared and does not have the same convictions about the power of prayer.  

Please give me any advice, I will appreciate it.  I am really confused and hoping I am hearing what I am supposed to be hearing not what I want to hear.  

I asked God for some guidance in my life.  And the next day the answers came to me.

I have been struggling over taking off more time from work to see my hubby, I miss so much because of chronic migraines.   I feel really torn between choosing my job and choosing my husband.  This week, after praying for some kind of answer, it occured to me that there is no longer a choice.  I am chosing my husband and if I have to look for a new job then so be it.  I know God will be there for me.  I have quit jobs before without having another one and he was there for me then and I know he will be this time as well.

I also have decided because after these revelations and the peace I suddenly had over my life that I will go to church.  I have been away from church most of my adult life but not away from God.  He was always in my heart.  

Well I am SO excited to go to church tomorrow, in fact, I feel like a kid the night before school starts.  I have been afraid to do this, since hubby is deployed.  I feared walking through that door by myself.  But then I decided that if Jesus found the strength to carry a cross, then I could surely walk through the door carrying mine.  

After making my decisions about my job and my husband and going back to church.  My mom also told me her and dad had been praying that I would find my way back to church.  So there are alot of prayers being answered this week in my small little life.  

I was in such turmoil about everything, and honestly I was so overwhelmed that I considered suicide.  I am not sure what finally made me pray for help, the work of the holy spirit I believe.  But once the answers came to me, I had such a peace about my decisions.  I know I am being guided by the hand of God.  It is a wonderful feeling.

My name is Tammy and I am 32 (Almost 33  ) and I am married to a wonderful man.  He is in the National Guard and currently deployed stateside.  We have been married 3 years in October and we have not been blessed with any children yet.

I look forward to getting to know you.