I can only say that I know what this child is going through.   I have spent much of my life in abuse.  I still hear abuse from my parents on the rare occasions that I do talk with them.  The abuse I recieved from my parents though only verbal lead me to an abusive relationship.  I am lucky to be alive.  
I will pray for all involved.  

I have lots of requests today.  Hopefully I will not ramble too much.  I have posted an introduction to myself under the about me section.  I did not include in that however that I have two daughters; The often ask why I have some of the scars I have and why I cant run and play with them like other moms-  I just told them that past choices gave me these and that I am ok.  
This week however I am meeting with a lawyer to see if I can still pursue pressing charges on my ex.  I am nervous and sick.  I haven't been out of bed much this week.  Maybe I should just let this all rest?  Forget about it.  I have an appointment with my counsler tomorrow.  I cant afford a lawyer - but I am assured that it will be ok.  So please pray that this depressed state i am in will subside.  Please pray that I will do what is right as far as seeing the lawyer.  Please pray that I will deal with my girls in the appropriate way.  And please pray that i will get out of bed and spend time with them like a mother should.  Please pray that I will hear God's voice and follow his leading in what to do.

Hello- I wanted to write something- tell just a portion of my story.  Oh what a work in progress.  I did not grow up in a Christian home.  My parents are very wealthy people who are concerned mostly with how they look to other people.  They have an image to keep- and in their opinion so do I.  I spent most of my adult life in a very abusive relationship.  My family are still in close contact with my ex- which thus means I have very little contact my family. I have no trust for people as they have continually broken my trust and hurt me. And I am working on undoing years of mental abusive from both my parents and my ex.  I have come to terms that physically I may never heal.  I have scars from burns on my face and arms.  I will walk with a limp for the rest of my life on earth because I was not allowed to go to the hospital to get treatment after my foot was broken in a beating. I suffer from depression and social anxiety.  I have a super Christian therapist who has helped me over come many things.  I have a wonderful new family through my church.  I still have many questions about my faith- and am working hard on the forgiving myself and others.  It is difficult when each day I look in the mirror and have to see the physical damage that my past has done- and live with the pain.  But I know that if I keep trudging ahead and stay on this path life will only get better.  One day I will sleep an entire nights sleep, I will not wake up fearful for my life.  One day getting out of bed will not be such a struggle.  But for today I thank God that I am alive.  I look forward to what is ahead.  I look forward to learning to trust and love.  

I have many questions.  But will start with this.  When I pray I loose my train of thought.  In church when the pastor prays I dont know what to do.  I try to stay focused.  But really how do I unite my heart with everyone elses?  I am a new Christian.  At age 28 I am feeling lost.  I didnt grow up going to church and praying.  Was this something that was taught in Sunday School that I missed out on?  I read my Bible- I pray by myself- even though my train of thought gets lost.  But there are times when my kids schedules, grocery lists, work, and other worries fill my head and the prayer wont come out.  Please provide me any helps or let me know what i missed.   I am getting discouraged and worried.