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Title: Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: musicllover on July 27, 2003, 11:09:54 PM
 Evening all,
         I have a great need tonight. I can't go into detail. But I ask that you all pray for me and my family. This could be the diff in getting my little boy back or not. He isn't mine thru natural mean, he was my cousin, but because of his mothers drgus habits he ended up with my family. We've had him for almost 4 yrs. My heart shattered when the judge gave him to his biological grandmother. This is a terrible decesion of the judge,or just the devil. His bilogical grandma's family is full of abuse, full of new age, full of drugs, cocaine, pot, booze, perversion of every kind.
       I can't stress how much wisdom is needed, my faith is being stretched, and I am finding it good elastic.....God is so good.  I pray that the power of the Holy Spirit would quicken the prayer warrior here, fight the demons of hell for me please. Stand in agreement to defeat the enemy that wants to kill steal and destroy this family. God is the business of making miracles and that is what we need. Tomorrow we file papers for a new trial, or we are seeking an appeal. Money is very very tight but we can't stop fighting and let him think we have abandonded him. That thougth stabbs into my soul like a dagger.
Jesus is Lord


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: TigerLily on July 28, 2003, 08:45:14 AM
Oh musicllover..
This is a heartbreaking post. Please know i will be standing with you and I claim in JESUS name your victory in reclaiming this young boys life,,, I know about abuse and stuff of that sort and i pray dear God,, let this little boy be rescued from the clutches of people who are not fit to bring him up!!!!
Please keep us updated on your journey to get him back.. anbd know there are people who are backing yous up in prayer!
Love Tigerlily :'(
God is a God of miracles..
Heres a chorus we sing that i hope will bless U..

Dont give up on the brink of a miracle
Dont give up,God is still on the throne
Dont give up on the brink of a miracle
Dont give up remember your not alone!!

TL


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: musicllover on August 04, 2003, 10:56:01 PM
Tigarlily,
             thank you. I appreciate the agreement in prayer. The papers are filed and now we await the judges decesion on weather we get a new trial. The new trial could still have the same out come, but we needed to let the judge know the reality of what my little boy could be living with.We got other family members who have seen my little boy, and his bioligical mom is around alot.....but not straight still doing drugs. And the biological mom allows it. Pray for favor with the judge. We must have this new trial.

ALso there is a business deal in the works, pray that its of God, and that I will be wise in how to handle this. Pray that it is real.........it would be a miralce of God if it is. It will give me the finances to get my son back with a good lawyer, and to help other children who have been mistreated by people and the system. I can't explain in detail right now but I am desperate for agreement in this, to keep the principlaities away and that God would be glorified.
  There is none like our God, there is none as Holy, there is none that will ever take his place he is God,the same yesterday, today and  tomorrow. If this happens I will shout form the roof tops that he is Lord. AMEN


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: chanelle on August 05, 2003, 08:16:42 PM
Remember God is bigger than any thing the devil may send your way.  I also ask that you get your boy back, through whatever means the Lord wills for you.  I also ask protection for your family as well and that you be filled with peace and know in your heart that God will bring you through this!!!!!


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: Cherie on August 06, 2003, 07:06:54 AM
My God , the same thing happened to me last summer? I don't understand and because I didn't understand I stopped doing anyting in sheer horror. My son feeling abandoned as well. Just keep moving on this and do not let it sit and I will prayer for you. Our judge gave our son to a drug dealer his father? I just posted payer for this?My 4 year old son I was cut off of so I could not even put him to bed at night? We were happy he has a younger sister he so proud of and loves so much and I was just getting them enrolled in shcool? I want them to go to a christian school. His father is abbusive also . Destroyed the kids room. Broght drug people into our home when I was gone and I prayed and prayed. Check your resources for family law help centers run by court system. My son begging to come home and tears me appat becaue I would always protect him? I will pray for you each time I pray for my situaitin as well. It took me along time to realize that there were alot of liees said by his father. Drugs and alchohol are an evil force and I will have others pray for you as well.  I understand how you feel.
                                              Love in Christ
                                              Cherie


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: musicllover on August 06, 2003, 09:07:19 AM
Cheri,
        I will pray for your son as I do my own, I shake with the fear, and the anger of how the system is failing our kids.

     God in Heaven, sweet Jesus, lamb of God and only son of God......restore the child unto there rightful parent, Place a host of angels roudn about our chidren as the battle lines are drawn. We stand in agreement, before your throen of grace, we ask in themight name of Jesus to come against the wickend and opressive spirits that casuse the authorites of this land to misrule. Your word says that you GOD creator place these authorities in these postions, I demand in the name of Jesus that the demons of wickendness let go of these judges, for they are place in these postions by the one mightier and stronger than you, JESUS CHRIST of Nazerath. You are bound by the blood of Jesus, every knee shall bow ever tongue confess Jesus is Lord. Bow demon serpent to the migty power of Jesus name, let loose our children and be for ever bond to the dry errand places from which you came. Holy Jesus you are Lord, master and savior, there is none like you. You are redeemer and King and to you I give all my praise. HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY lamb of God, I worship you in spirit and in truth. I humbly bow and sumbit these needs to you Oh Lord. For nothing can seperate us from the Love of God,........
in Jesus name,
amen


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: Symphony on August 06, 2003, 06:02:30 PM

'Praying for you right now, musiclover, and Cherie....

Thanks, chanelle, and Tigerlilly, ;D


In Jesus' Name....


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: nChrist on August 08, 2003, 05:27:00 AM
Oklahoma Howdy to Musiclover and Cherie,

I worked with the court system and a children's shelter for over 25 years, and I don't understand the court system either. I would first tell you to gather every police report you can get your hands on, find out which social workers may have case files, talk to those who know about the case and ask if they will provide documentation and/or statements, prepare a subpoena list for those who know something and won't help, and continually write down every scrap of information you know or get while it is still fresh on your mind. Make recordings of telephone conversations and everything else you can think of to build a strong case to do what is right for the children. Try to be sweet and gracious to those in government agencies who may be able to help you. They are drowning in overwork and have case loads that would be appropriate for 5 to 10 people instead of one.

Do your homework and pray. I pray that God will give you the strength, wisdom, guidance, and endurance to provide a proper home for these precious children. Lord, lead them to people of compassion who can help. Father, watch over and protect these little ones who are in need. Father, open the eyes of those who will decide the future of these little ones that they may do Your will. I ask these things in the name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Saviour.    Amen.

In Christ.


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: a.b. on August 11, 2003, 09:06:37 PM
Dear Lord, please help musiclover and cherie as they go through this valley of the shadow of death.  It literally feels like a death when a child is taken from its mother for ungodly
reasons.  I know that you understand, Father, because you watched your only Son go through a horrible ordeal just to save a wretch like me.  Help my sisters in Christ to remember that you do understand what they are going through and you
are with them every step of the way.  Help them to get sound
advice from credible sources and give them courage to act upon the advice given.  I rebuke the devil in Jesus' powerful name and ask that you tear down every stronghold the enemy
has built; stop the evildoers and the evil spirits that influence them in Jesus' Holy & powerful name, Amen


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: musicllover on August 11, 2003, 10:09:06 PM
Thank you for all the prayers, keep them coming Please.
It now seems the the family services in the state of Tenn doesn't feel that home visits are necessary, even tho the Missouri courts say that its necessary. Some kind of confusion with an interstate agreement between Mo, and Tenn. SO There will be no checking into to see how my little boy is, if he is being treated good, no one to answer to if the biological mother is with him alone doped up or drunk if porn or new age is in the home, no one to see to his emotional needs. We've try calling the court atlightium and he acts like there is nothing he can do, the family services in Mo acts there is nothing they can do. THIS isn't right. He did say he wanted all the info we could give him in 4 months. I typed up every dirty detailed story I could remember (ALL TRUE) and faxed them to our lawyer, he has filed motion to amend, appeal, correct, reverse, over turn, this decesion. That will take the judges to admit that it was a wrong decesions.....PRAY for his wisdom and favor for us with him. The only good think about this IF I'm a squeeky wheel long enough and get all this to the Judges attention, and the good Lord opens his eyes he will change his decesion it will be the final decesion. I don't believe an appeals court would listen to a case that has been decided on then overturned by the same judge........DOESN'T anyone on earth care about this boy but me? I am going to call the court atlighium again, and ask if he wants what I faxed to our lawyer. There are some details that I wrote about for that aren't in the legal papers....like a therapist or child specials to explain what this could do to out little boy, the head of child placement promising that it was settled with the courts, and had the judges ok to allow my mom to adopt, forcing my husband and I out of the adoption process since we didn't want to appear like we were fighting among ourselves for him....... I need favor with the court atlightium ...... its such a mess,

Doesn't the bible say that God put these men in these postions of authority. I am so tired of this legal system, its not made for the innocent children, and those who do them wrong. PLEASE grant us favor with the judge, bring to light all the ugly and the wrongs.....and correct this situation in the might name of Jesus.


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: Allinall on August 14, 2003, 02:53:24 AM
"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart."

Remember, keep focused on Him.  In Him you can find the strength, clarity, and peace you need to deal as He would have you with each of these trials that you're being flooded by.  Praying for you and your boy.   :)


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: missyann250 on August 14, 2003, 05:44:23 AM
Musiclover I share your frustrations, ridiculous red tape absurdity, but I will share something with you.
Having shared custody after a horrible offense, to which was proven an offense, oh, but, the court hearing was final.  It was stated that the two children,( from a previous marriage ), should be back with me as custodial parent immediately.  I had to wait for twelve years.  I finally got them back with no problem, twelve years later.

This will not happen to you.
 
I finally went to a Christian attorney after things were not going well, and my daughter told my brother what the life was like there.  The attorney, court reporter were christian.  We all prayed.  

I prayed one thing every time I went to the courhouse for somehthing. But actually, it was only two hearings. That the Lord would open the Judges eyes to see the truth, and touch his heart.  But mainly I prayed that He would touch his heart.  Every single time it was amazing and the process took such a short time that my attorney was amazed.  The first hearing the father wasn't even there and the Judge kept shaking his head that he shouldn't be signing the temporary custody papers without the father there.  They aren't suppose to do that.  I will never forget the grin, and how the Judge kept shaking his head like he knew he shouldn't be signing the okay- like he couldn't help but do it!

Please don't worry for yourself's sake.  Try to keep remembering that how much you trust is how much the Lord can help you too, although, we know the Lord would only want what is right.  But, He loves us not to worry and leave it up to Him

Musiclover, Jesus has already been working on this by the sound of your movements and awareness of what is necessary.  I really want God to bless your heart with peace, and that you keep working on it diligently.  He will be with you, and I will pray for you.  It will be a continual prayer.  I won't forget.  God will protect your son.   :)

In Christ, missy


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: musicllover on August 17, 2003, 12:05:55 AM
PLEAE continue with your prayers, They are working, something is happening. This is a step in the right direction. We were able to have my little boy for 1 week as the judge said we could. It was a wonderful 7 days. But he was telling us how he didn't like his "grammie" she spanking him for asking to come home, and told him she hated him, she also hit him in the head and as he said, "made me cry". Why would a women who supposable loved this boy behave like that. All to soon the week was up and "grammie" was walking up into the yard to take him. He just told her I don't want to go with you, it made her mad and she showed her back side good. Jerked him up, won't let any of us say good bye, pushed me away from him, jerking him around as he fought to stay, in the process of putting him in the car she hit his head on the side of the car. Him screaming and cry I don't want to go, holding his hands out to me. I am yelling at her trying to get her to talk to me, telling her, he has more of his thinks in the house, can't we say good bye.....I'm asking her to explain,what is wrong..Neighbors seen it too. She then took off so fast that she threw gravel. We did call the hot line number, and gave a report, the next day the Social worker called and took it from there. In less than 4 days we have a date Sept 12 to go before the judge to make a motions for a new trial. PRAY PLEASE that the Judge would see this is not in the best interest of my foster son, that we would get a new trial, and that the Judge would reverse his original decesion. I have so much hope right now, and so much fear, if the judge doesn't let us have a new trial, and reverse his decision I will be destroyed. And my little man will live a life of pure hell. We are praying and thanking all at the same time.
    from this board to Gods ears, like a sweet aroma to the Lord. Bring my baby home.
        coming home Tuesday, I thought I was going to crack completely, shaking and crying after what I seen, afraid for my foster son. I felt like I needed to read my bible, praying for God to give me some direction and peace. It came to mind to read Matt 18:11 For the Lord came to save that which was lost. WOW OH Sweet Jesus talked to me in his word, back up to verse 10, Take heed that you do not despise one of these little ones, for I say to you that in heaven their angels always see the face of MY father who is in Heaven.
    I share this with all who are fighting this battle too. Find comfort in the news that their personal angel is watching over them. I don't know why things happen this way, but I know that God is working this out for us. I don't want to stop praying, the Lord has truly layed alot on my heart, such a strong calling. I don't know how to bring it about, but I know I have a strong desire to do something for Children. What is that saying God doesn't call the equipt but equipts the called.... I begin college this next week, and still not sure what I"m going to be when I grow up....LOL(I'l; be 43 in Oct). I just know I want it to involve children and helping them.
    Thank You Jesus, bless the little chirldren Lord, give our babies rest this night, and rest with in their souls as you work this out.
In Jesus name


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: dreamcatcher9819 on August 17, 2003, 09:10:38 PM
praying.


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: musicllover on August 23, 2003, 10:13:53 PM
 Made contact with the bioligical grandmother today, to see if we could come down to Tenn and see our foster boy, NO, I can't but my mom is welcome. She doesn't trust me, blaims me for the hotline call. I didn't make the call but I know who did. It doestn' make any diff now. She believes it was me, and God is my defense, and my rear guard. Please pray that my little boy won't forget me. I know that may sound odd to you guys but he is going thru so much trauma with the seperation, sometimes the mind just can't take it and blocks the hurt out. The judge said while on the bench we were to have frequent visits. When the order was put down on paper, my name isn't on it. So I guess she isn't breaking rules.She has him in therapy to help him deal with everything. I am glad for that. I pray that my son is honest with his doc. Someone to talk to someone to listen to him, and who really cares.PRAY that the judge will see  that if she legal adopts we will have no contact with him at all. Lord please hear my hearts cry, bring my baby home. Protect his heart and mind, cover him with your wing Lord. Come against the forces that are working against us Lord. Give the judge discernment, allow a new trial Lord. Lord forgive me if I pray against your will, give me strength to walk this thru, and live it the way that you want.
In Jesus name
 
I have to be honest I am about to crumble here. The flesh is so tired and hurt. Being blaimed for all this and I haven't done anything except love a little boy. BUt I won't let this weaken my faith that God can work this out to his glory.


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: nChrist on August 24, 2003, 03:50:13 AM
Oklahoma Howdy to Musiclover,

I have been praying for you and will continue to. I think we come closer to God many times during trials, adversity, and illness. I also think if we continue to pray, seek his will, and obey that some of the best things happen during these times of difficulty. I will continue to pray for your son and pray for you that you receive guidance, peace, patience, and wisdom through these hard times. Don't let anyone get to you, make you angry, and cause you to do something that would come back to haunt you in court.

It really doesn't matter who called the hot-line because someone probably needed to do it. Whatever you do, do it calmly and with peace, only after prayer.

In Christ,
Tom


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: musicllover on September 19, 2003, 09:32:11 AM
      We've lived thru another battle, we did go before the judge to agrue for a new trial. My Lawyer, the Division of Family services, court atlightium, and the Juvinelle dept lawyer asked for a new trial. The judge over ruled. WHY????? All the lawyer asked for one, except the lawyer for my other family member. This judge is either totally stupid or very very stubborn. Our next step is to appeal, we are trying to showing legal error, with the inter state compact not in place, my son shouldn't have EVERY left the state. Keep praying, I don't know how to handle this. God is my rear guard, he goes before me and after me. But I have to ask is this how God wants it? Am I going against his will?
      Another issue has come up as well, with this mess. Other family members are telling us now that the biological grandma has cancer, major stuff, and that the drug mom who lost the boy to begin with is living with the biological grandmother, and her ex son (my son). This is against court orders. And with the bio's possilbe heath problem this could get my son back. I don't wish ill health on anyone, NO ONE should die of cancer. At the same time I can't help but wonder if all that she has lied about, the situation that my son will grow up in, and the way this court system seems to be ruled by the devil............. well I don't know I know God doesn't cause Cancer, but I also know that he could if he wanted too. Does that make sense. I want my son back, permantly, I want his bio grandma to be healed, in that order. I wonder if she didn't know this and even lied on the stand about her being in good health. And do we trust the family members who has told us this? It terrible but I don't know who to trust in this family anymore.
       I called everybody legally connected to the case, and didn't get any responses back. I had to leave messages as no one was at thier phones. I did speak to the juvinelle officer, and she was very helpful. (I found out thru the grape vine that she acctually cried the day they gave me son away. She said she'd never cried over a juvinelle case before. Seen lots of stupid stuff but NEVER the judge going aginst Lawyer, DFS, and juvinelle dept wishes).  I finally called Division of Family services again and talk to our social worker on this case. He was yes I got your message, something about her having cancer, it was hard to understand my sec writitng.............. I wasn't to happy, THIS ISN"T something to be so lay back about. I know I'm impatient, but still if he was unsure of the message why not call and check it out?  Why didn't anyone call and say we're checking it out. I dont' know maybe everyone is sick of this case. I am, but it has to be looked into. I'll be the squeeky wheel until I have no legal grounds to do so......nice way of saying it  :(  So he is suppose to call the other state have them check into it. They barely want anything to do with the case let alone worry about this womens health, and probably really feel like its none of their business who lives with her. This is this states problem, there was no agreement between the states, so they don't have to do anything this state asks.
     Anyone know anything about who I can call in the state of Tenn to do with the family services around the Memphis area?  I am calling my rep. again in a few days. I've already got friend in the state capital going to look into it, but shes on vacation this week. So I have to be patient.
       PRAY for resolution to this, peace of mind please.
Jesus is Lord all the time, not just when we are in trouble.
thanks you guys for listen to me vent.


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: nChrist on September 19, 2003, 12:15:46 PM
Oklahoma Howdy to Musiclover,

I'm still praying for you and your family.

Remember, whatever you do, have patience and do things calmly only after prayer.

There is a lot in your message I'm trying to digest and think about.

In the meantime, KEEP LOOKING UP!

In Christ,
Tom


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: Jabez on September 19, 2003, 01:50:39 PM
2 chronicles 20:12

O our God, wilt thou not judge them? for we have no might against this great company that cometh against us; neither know we what to do: but our eyes [are] upon thee

2 chronicles 20:15

And he said, Hearken ye, all Judah, and ye inhabitants of Jerusalem, and thou king Jehoshaphat, Thus saith the LORD unto you, Be not afraid nor dismayed by reason of this great multitude; for the battle [is] not yours, but God's.

Keep us updated as GOD works for you.Remember If GOD is for us WHO can be against us.


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: musicllover on September 24, 2003, 10:11:58 AM
2 chronicles 20:12

O our God, wilt thou not judge them? for we have no might against this great company that cometh against us; neither know we what to do: but our eyes [are] upon thee

2 chronicles 20:15

And he said, Hearken ye, all Judah, and ye inhabitants of Jerusalem, and thou king Jehoshaphat, Thus saith the LORD unto you, Be not afraid nor dismayed by reason of this great multitude; for the battle [is] not yours, but God's.

Keep us updated as GOD works for you.Remember If GOD is for us WHO can be against us.

Thanks Tom,
    and Jabez,
   Before I read your post Jabez, I'll gotten a daily devotional, reminding me that fear is not of the Lord, and that he will go before me.......isn't God good.              
    Most defiantly Tom, I am impatient as we wait to see what the next step is. Even tho its costing my Mom a great deal of money we did file an appeal Monday. This will stop any adoption until possilby the illness and the ex mom living there can be investigated. Dec is the end of the 6 months that the biological grandma had before she could adopt. The appeal will take at least until January. Possilby there will be enough reason to not allow that adoption even if our appeal is denied. I don't know anything anymore. Except I KNOW in my heart that this boy belongs with my husband and I. Yesterday was his 4th birthday. The bilogical grandma called ME, I about fell over. She wanted to thank us for our gift, and I talked a few minutes to my son, he sounds so sweet, he was all excited over new toys and a party they'd had for him when my mom spoke to him, he even said he wanted to call me.... I am so gald tho that he had a good time. But when she/ he called,  he was unusually quiet tho, we had to ask him what he got. I hate that because his bio gram, was on the other phone so he I know he felt he couldn't talk. ANd I honestly believe this time since she called me she really wanted him to speak.....go way to brag about stuff...maybe.
       I am torn now, What do we do if the biolgical grandma has cancer? NO ONE should die with hate in there heart, I still love the aunt that she was to me all these years. She is only a few years older than I am. I am praying about how the Lord would have me handle this. I've had a calling on my life to ministy to the dieing and this really pulls at me. But by doing anything it could cause the ex mom to run with my son. She has done that before with her older boy.  There was some concern that she tried to black market her older son for drugs. But that is only hear say.......but it is a concern.  I've sat with my father in law, father, step father, neighbor, talked with them read them scriptures, sang, talked about the beauty of heaven, to keep their minds on the heavenly things.........Lord. I have it in my heart to make a tape of beautiful songs that really ministry to the soul. Send them to my son and pray they will help her in her time. AND I want my son back. Talk about mixed feelings.......
      God is good, he will work it out.


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: nChrist on September 24, 2003, 03:46:56 PM
Oklahoma Howdy to Musiclover,

I am still praying for you and your family. I wish that I had some sort of magic answer for you, but I don't. The answers appear to rest with God and should remain a matter of prayer.

In the meantime, keep collecting and preserving every piece of information and logging events, dates, times, places, and circumstances. Whatever you do, don't lose your patience and do something that might delay or prevent a positive outcome.

KEEP LOOKING UP!

In Christ,
Tom


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: musicllover on October 05, 2003, 11:16:18 PM
Good evening,
                  I shared good news on the answered prayer site, my Son is back in the USA from Iraq. Almost 9 months of that place.....thank you Jesus.
       We've filled for the appeal, payed for the transcripts to be typed up, and now its a waiting game.
      I find myself with stronger faith now that ever before. Not because it looks so promising  it doesn't, its more bleak now that ever before. I inadvertaly let my bio grandma know we knew about her supposed cancer. (sent an email to "ALL" and she was one of them.......DUMB DUMB. I'm human, and it gets alot of stuff in the open. She hit the ceiling, saying no she doesn't have cancer. So only God knows what is the truth. Anyway The process is the appeals court looks at the transcripts and what the Lawyers argue, there is legal reason for this case to be over turned. As least that is what my Lawyer is saying. But sometimes he leaves me wondering what he is doing....when we talk on the phone he'll admit since he doesnt' have the paper work in front of him ect ect. We have the name of another lawyer,,,,good Christian Lawyer (that is what this one was suppose to be as well) is it a good idea to change NOW? Our Lawyer was suppose to call us and set up an appt to talk this thru.......we've called him and he hasn't returned our calls. I called again he was sick and was going to miss the next day too. SO PRAY please for our wisdom. Is it even legal for another lawyer to step in now? Would he want to take on this case having never handled it before......maybe we can use BOTH of them?  
       KEEP this a matter of pray please. We need an end to this mess, for my foster sons sake, and this family's sake. Its time to heal and begin a new......
JESUS IS LORD

   I just know that I'm not giving up until the gavel hits the wood........then I will know that God has had hiw final say in this.


Title: Re:Urgent Prayer needed
Post by: sanjerle on October 07, 2003, 10:17:41 AM
Hi
i;m new to this site but i wanted you to know i what you are dealing with now .i also had to deal with. and i will pray for you . in my case the judge did give my son back to his birth mother but a year and a half later he returned home and is now 20 and living on his own it is very hard to not be there to protect the child you have come to love so much . and my son went throw alot . but i have to believe God has his reasons.( i still don't know what they were and may never ) . but i'm thankful that he gave him back to me . i had him from the time he was 6months old and his mom got him back when he was 7 it was a very hard time for me . and God has blessed his mother now she is substance free and trying to live a good christian life and she thanks me often for rising her son.
  a big step for her . so try not to dispair  Gods hand is in this  for what ever his reasons even if we don't see it at the time or understand it. love in christ sanjerle