You'd do yourself well to stop calling it xtianity. To "x" out the name of Christ is beyond offensive. You're trying to blot out the name of the Son of God being God in the flesh.
The use of an 'x' to signify Christ may seem offensive but why? It is a convention that is almost as old as Christianity itself. The first letter in the Greek word for 'Christ' is 'chi,' and the Greek letter 'chi' is represented by a symbol similar to the letter 'X' in the modern Roman alphabet. Whether the poster meant to be disrespectful or not I don't know, but it's a perfectly legitimate abbreviation.
Again though I will tell you. You ask of things beyond your current ability. You can not even begin to discern spiritual things until you have been saved.
This might be true if all people who have been saved spiritually discerned everything the same way. Really it's just an attempt to escape critical evaluation of your beliefs.